munsation

2010-11-29T07:34:00.002+08:00

Another week, another Monday.. All drawing closer to the end of 2010. What an eventful year. Ha. An excellent first half of the year followed by a disasterous end year. What did I make for the resolutions for this year anyway? Think I forgot about them totally. And am I better off this year as compared to last year? Maybe, maybe not. It's scary how time flies. Still feel like am kinda a fresh grad or freshly outbid ns.. But no. Am already been working in the banking industry for the past 3 over years. And within a short period of time the age of 21 is gone and reaching 30 in the near future. What the hell. Damn fast la. Haha. Guess we have to appreciate our youth, our time, and our health as well. You are only young once? :)

hmm.. This weekend is rather packed. Friday night was spent on gathering with my sim pals followed by blading with the guys. Recorded our distance this time round.. 11+ km.. Not bad.. But not as far as compared the last time round. We went further.. But didn't record it though, heh.. Have to work on sat.. Therefore woke up early, went to work followed by going home to rest before heading out to meet mark for some drinks. Met the others for dinner at suki sushi. One conclusion. Never let Darius order. He will jolly well order too much and we will have to think where to hide the stuff so that we won't be charged for wastage. Hahah.. Went for gaming after dinner and had a shock while gaming coz in our livescore application, we saw a score that read man u 5 Blackburn 0. Woah. Man utd went crazy. Ha. We soon followed it up by heading to mr bean to complete the game. Final score 7-1. What a thrashing. Finally, Sunday was spent on soccer in the evening and dinner after that. Super random on the dinner part though. We had decided to go to either lagoon or old airport rd market. But along the way someone just said about steamboat. We end up going for steamboat instead. -.-"" and just like that, weekend is over. That's fast isn't it?

Hmm.. December is round the corner.. I feel like heading out for a holiday.. But no one is going with me.. Maybe I need to go by myself.. Backpack or something.. Go relax the mind and maybe continue the journey for searching oneself. Yep. That's for all today. Now I shall enjoy the rest of the bus journey stoning. Hahahah.

2010-11-24T04:04:00.002+08:00

Sleepless night again. This is bad. Ever since the breaking up incident happened, I seemed to have lost myself totally. Not being able to sleep, hence resulting not being able to work properly too. Everything is just screwed up now. I can't even think properly I guess. Probably I know that I can't lie to myself any longer. I'm having trouble to keep it inside of me already. N yup. To everyone's disappointment, I didn't manage to get over it. I thought I did for a short while.. But that's probably a minor distraction. When time starts to set in, she would naturally be in my mind. And yes.. Even though I have been constantly telling everyone that I'm good, it's fine. I'm ok... But in fact. No I'm not ok. I'm sorry, I lied. It's just that I don't want to be seen as a weakling or I do not wish to trouble any of my friends or let them feel sorry for me. The feelings inside me is chaotic. It's terrible at night and worse on weekends. This is just one shoutout place I can safely blast I guess.. since no one really read this anymore.. For those who know me and have read this, take it as u didn't see it. Let me continue to lie in front of u so that one day this lie will eventually become a reality. Take it as ur helping me along the way. Thanks.

I seriously think I'm into depression. Everything seems wrong. Failed relationship, job not doing well, not motivated, disillusioned, can't even take care of my own health now it seems. Damn it. The more expectations u have, the harder u fall.. How true.. This goes along with the more effort u have put in.. The more painful it will be. Arghh.

I nearly MSG her to let her know all the thoughts that are running in me.. However, I managed to stop myself from doing it. If not, it seems like I want her to take pity on me. Hai. Hence.. I end up blogging here to vent out the frustration I guess...

Loke chee Mun. Stop it. Go n sleep.

2010-11-22T07:30:00.002+08:00

It's another new week. Monday again. Feeling the Monday blues? You betcha. Ha. Hmm.. The weekend has passed quickly. Spending Friday night blading away tiring myself, went club hopping on Saturday and Sunday was spent on gaming and soccer. Sad to say, there is still something missing. Heh. Yeah. I think those who read will get what I meant. There are still times whereby I'll think of her. But I know I shouldn't do that at all.. But hey. 4 years. Easy to forget? Nah I don't really think so.. Of course the feeling is different from a month back. It is just.... Err.. So close yet so far kinda feeling? Nah.. I also dunno how to put it out in words. Anyway, shall not turn this into an emo entry. Hahaha..

Work is turning pretty meaningless it seems. What am I doing? What is it that I want? This is really quarter life crisis. Ha.. Oh well, probably have to wait for my degree before I can apply for jobs. At least I'm armed with a business degree is so much better than a fsv diploma. See how it goes. Searching back my goal and motivation? Yeah. Probably.

Anyway, I have a new hobby these days. (and I tell ya, it's not good) haha.. I'm into my room's tv! Addicted to shows played on funshion. Watched several movies, the entire series of lie to me and am watching white collar currently. Talk about being a couch potato eh? Haha. Am turning into one I guess. And it is not good!!!!! Haha..

Alright. Destination nearing. Time to prepare for the week. Ciaos.

2010-11-16T09:09:00.003+08:00

Good day folks,

hmm.. Have you ever enjoyed bus journeys? Sometimes I do enjoy bus journeys in the morning.. It sets me thinking and prepare myself properly for the day. (though I must say that sometimes I have head nodding sessions in the bus instead. Ha)
Have been taking this bus journey since young. The same bus, same route, just that a shorter destination. Used to take the same bus to my primary school after I shifted house. N wala. I'm taking the same bus... 16 years on. Ha. Damn. It doesn't help but makes you feel old ya? Ha. Am typing this in the bus journey to work anyway. Ha. Talk about technology. It's scary isn't it? You r connected everywhere. Hahah..

Yesterday, Chris was telling me that he is having his quarter life crisis. Not sure where to go or rather not sure what to do. Maybe it's in banking sales ppl I guess. Once our sales is not fantastic, u tend to worry abit. Well for him, he seldom worry on such things. How things change eh? Will we still be in the banking line in the future? I wonder.

Anyway, I watched eat, pray, love online. A very good and meaningful movie. Some meaningful quotes I got there is: Ruin is a gift. We must learn to appreciate it and embrace it with an open heart and mind. To think about it, ruin is actually good in a way. Yes I feel ruined by my ex. But well, on the other hand, you will move on, grow and probably make better decisions in the future. Ruin changes a person but not necessary in a bad way. Pending on how a person approaches it, it may be a positive thing. Think of the silver lining in a cloud. There's always something bright out of it. Everyone that comes into our lives gives us lessons to learn and grow. As we take these lessons, we change, develop and think differently. Probably in a more mature sense as we factor in all these life lessons. Searching oneself is never easy. But as we move along and understand ourselves from every lesson, hey, we get to know ourselves abit better and this will lead to knowing oneself.

Sad thing though for now is that I'm not sure in relationships anymore. Maybe for now I guess. Trust is something that its hard to earn yet easy to break. Probably I believe and trusted people too easily. Not saying that she did anything bad, but its just that the faith to go the distance is gone i guess. Wendy has said that my previous relationship seems like a fairytale and it seemed good. Ha. Oh well, fairytale ain't true isn't it? Anyway, I've moved on. Probably enjoy singlehood for now I guess. What happens next, im not sure too. But one thing I do know is that I'll probably have to settle what I want to do first. This is still hanging in me for the longest time... Do I still wanna do sales? Have to sort this out. Am still doing things as per normal.. But evey once in a while. This thought will pop in. Hai. Life ain't easy eh? Ha.

Alright.. My destination is reaching.. Meaning that this post should end too. Ha. I think I might just start posting in bus journeys. Hahaha.. Till thn. Take care ppl.

2010-10-31T04:57:00.002+08:00

Hey ppl.. ha. looks like I'm slowly re-activating this blog all over again. I'm surprised that there are people who has been following my blog. Thanks to those who still follow.. and sorry for the long periods whereby i went missing.. To be honest, this blog seemed really more like a complaint corner.. haha.. so i hope those ppl who still read my blog.. pls do not get too affected by the things I say.. take it as a small child whining. hahaha Probably that will be better. Heh.

Anyway, first major update to everyone.. yes. Its over. I'm single. Everything ended. After all the efforts I've put in thinking that everything will be good.. It still ended. During the time when she was based overseas and we had a LDR.. i thought that was the hardest period.. we went through it successfully.. when she was in JAL.. (stationed in Singapore) everything seem good.. there were even thoughts on settling down and all... tried to ballot for hdb.. etc. ha. well.. like they say.. all good things will come to an end. it ended. Painful but. I have to take it. Embrace changes is all i can say. A number of things I've learned from this break up.Well.. 1 main thing i know is that I have to learn to be stronger. Easier said than done but ya.. Till date.. im still trying to get my grip back to life.. I may look normal on the outside.. but inside.. it's a different story. Feelings are somehow kept in a forgotten pocket in the brain and I'm trying my best not to touch that sensitive pocket. On top of this I have to focus on one other important thing... which is obviously my exams. Hmm.. life for me so far has never been smooth sailing or pretty.. It's filled with trying periods every now and then (oh well who doesn't u must be thinking) but ya.. there are always times whereby you hit a new low point in life it seems. And when shit happens, everything would come together. How great is that. They always test me on my personal character and strength. I didn't fare well though. Heh.
Then again, i should be more optimistic and not whine on such matters anymore.. it brings me nowhere.

Sidetrack. I left my previous employment and went to another bank.. UOB. Oh well, i shouldn't say too much about it. If you read my previous post.. you will know why I do not wish to go into details on the bank.. Main thing is.. its not the bank.. its just other stuff. Heh. *SKIP*

Anyway, this post sounds pathetic. Are you ppl really reading such crap by me? Ha. Hopefully the next one would be better.. or maybe.. its just due to the fact that I'm more affected today because of the date. It was supposed to be our anniversary. Arghh. what am i doing.

K sleep. Study. exams again on Monday. Ciaos.

2010-09-26T21:29:00.003+08:00

Seems like I'm gone for the longest time. Well, if this s a release corner, thn it will well be a place for me to pour out everything. No one is reading this place anymore i believe, which is a good thing too.. Every post in here seems like some sad news. Was reading the previous entry. The terrible thing that happened to my mom. Thats a nightmare. Come this year end. Things are not working in favor of me as usual. I have unlucky strikes whenever it comes to the end of the year i wonder whats wrong too.

Fast forward one year on. Recently something really big happened. I was having problems with my gf. Things were getting really shaky and im currently threading on a very fine line. She had a change of jobs, came to join me in sales but over at the housing loans side. The work stress plus other commitments seemed to force her to think it over on our relationship. Am not going to put in everything in this post as it may seem like im hanging dirty laundry in public. But one thing is for sure.

Im just gonna say my feelings now. Im lost. All that I may have planned for with her are turning into jeopardy. Will we really make it? Its even harder to accept why am I that weak. A relook back a number of years, Kat broke up with me and yes im devastated. But that was only over a year and half of relationship. Plus the fact that we were pretty young thn. Come at the age of 26, these things happen over a nearly 4 years of relationship. I cant really accept. I want to be stronger.. but i have a weak and fragile heart it seems. It seemed like I'm an overly dependant person in terms of emotional support. Is it because she is considered as my closest kin since im not really that close to my family as a result? Im not sure. I can confide everything with my gf.. She is the person who is there for me whenever i needed her. But this time round, this person is not there. Why cant I stand up on my own? I feel empty. I've lost focus. My life goals with her seems to be fading away. Can future be really this unpredictable? Man.. Im trying to see is there sunshine after this heavy rain at the moment. Am really lost but only I can lead my own way out. I cant be relying on ppl. I thank friends who gave me emotional support when i needed them. Thanks.

I need time to pull through. There is still hope but its kinda weak. Hopefully things can change for the better. A new approach to this relationship may help. And Im trying it. Pray for me.

Was listening to Show Luo's 搞笑. Ha. Match perfectly.

那一条牙膏在对我傻笑
嘲笑我永远用不掉
想睡就睡想闹就闹
好快乐少了人唠叨

蓝色的碗盘多买了一套
我忘了没人陪我通宵
要多少替代的丑角无辜的陪笑
才会让我能真的忘了你的好

我在搞笑借着热闹掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑偏要说着一个人真好
当人群散了突然觉得我可以死掉
我受不了

还在搞笑害怕回家不知怎么熬
这么多年早就喜欢有你的撒娇
我想我能熬但是至少要让我知道
你好不好

我们的小狗食量变好小
眼神里常常显得无聊
他习惯睡觉的床位少了一双脚
所以他常常看着门口睡不着

我在搞笑借着热闹掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑偏要说着一个人真好
当人群散了突然觉得我可以死掉
我受不了

我在搞笑却在最后眼泪拼命掉
你的离开失去多少我计算不了
忙完了一天突然觉得又何必辛劳
对谁炫耀

还在搞笑是否拥有麻痹的疗效
唱一夜歌却避不开催泪的曲调
我彻夜胡闹希望听到有人会提到
你好不好

2009-11-04T02:47:00.002+08:00

This will be a long post i guess.. Its been really a long long while since i last update anything here ya? Oh well..lots of things happened.. i do have to agree that human beings have to adapt to changes quickly as this is the one and only thing that will not change. Sounds like a pun eh? Well if you sit back and think about it, i believe that all of you will have to agree with it. Everything keeps changing. And nothing can stop it from not changing.

The last post i had was exams ya? ha. its the same this time round.. exams again. Darn. Really hate it. And this time round, the thing that is tormenting me is again finance stuff again. Investment module. Wonder how am i going to pass again. Well as for my business finance, i had past year paper to deal with it. This time round, i had nothing. Study everything la. Well, not as easy. Hai.. Took a week plus of leave just to concentrate on this paper... hope i can clear it.. *prays*

A major thing happened to my mum a few months back.. she is finally recovered now.. my mum went for a harmless genting trip back in june. However, this harmless trip ended up being very harmful as she ended up having fever of 40C and going in and out of hospital. She stayed there for 2 full months and nothing was known on what is the infection that caused her to be this bad. There were even times that i thought i might lose her as she began hallucinating and everything just got from bad to worse. It was really the darkest period of my life.. Juggling between work, school and hospital. Thinking back, there were countless times that i don't know what to do and feel like throwing the towel and leave everything to fate. Oh well, somewhat, i managed to hold on... bare minimum though. My mum's nightmare didn't end there, she was transferred back to a rehab hospital for another month and eventually back to the primary hospital for another two weeks before coming back home. Hai. What a long journey and worst thing is, the cause is still unknown. Lots of strange diseases coming out these days though... 2012.. end of the world? *shrugs*

Work hasn't been really smooth-sailing. Disrupted by reservist and exams.. am still unable to excel in this job. Oh well, the bad thing is, self doubt starts to occur as it seems like im unable to perform in this job.. but of course. given the market situation, i have to pull through it.. or maybe i'll need a change of environment. am not sure how that is going to end up though. We'll see.. Changes in the management too.. SEE. Changes are happening at such a frantic pace.

Love, well has been pretty good i would say.. but of course there are times of minor conflicts and resolutions were settled rather quickly. Toodar has also stood by me in a number of trying moments and really appreciate her for that. Well, let's hope that everything is good... as long as possible..heh..

Hai.. 315am now.. am supposed to read up abit more before sleeping.. but somehow, the mind is reluctant in studying. It has been like this for a while now and that's not good. I wish i know how to train my mind back to a student mind... or was i ever in that state? ha..

To sum it up, well, life is always about challenges i guess, if it was ever so easy, no one would treasure life as it is. treasure yr love ones as you might lose them at any moment. live life to the fullest. strike a balance between work and play. think positive and take on the challenges ahead. you hold your own destiny. it depends on how you want to shape it.

2009-04-22T13:19:00.003+08:00

Stressful times. Yep. Exams is round the corner and.. im stressed. Damn. I guess this is really the first time im working so hard for exams. Reviewing the qs, redo the calculations, making sure no careless mistakes, etc. hai...

See!!! I wonder y did i take biz finance. It's like digging my own grave.. man...

Help... Somebody save me... *drown in studying*

Oh ya. Not fogetting.. Im gonna do reservist again!! Probably have hit the record of serving the nation 3 times in a year! First it was in camp 18 days... followed by 4 days (IPPT & Shooting) and... another 12 days operation in july!!! Err.. Can they employ more ppl to slacken us? I had enough call ups. Anymore i will be jobless soon. Man..

2009-03-08T23:04:00.006+08:00

Let's see.. since its been real donkey months that I have not publish anything... Well today just might be the day I shall do a whole lot of updates. Heh... (What to do.. stressed with targets, exams and whatsoever.)

Anyway, been awhile as a RM.. definitely not easy i should say but its still somehow 'do-able'. This photo is taken when I was still in the RM course..

Well, no photos in work so.. heh the latest photo i have at work.. still passable ya? Ha.. Hmm.. been to Rochor, enjoyed some up and down times there.. Am running well for January and achieved the top RM (excluding SRMs) in my bank but.. unable to hit any target.. so oh well, its just a prestige i think (to be somewhere near the top feels good) ha.. in feb, took some knocking from the management whereby their micro-management is somewhat scary. Drop down to the middle this month but still doing fine.. The good thing is, all is over. I believe that once u get used to the stress they apply to u, overtime u just get used it.. So ya. Whenever they stress on us, its like.. *there they go again* and back to my own work. hahaha.. March started smoothly.. but, am going into Reservist so its time to take some 'offs'.

Oh ya, the good news is, I'm transferring back to AMK. Back to the 5 mins bus ride from home. Hee.. Feels good isn't it? Generally much more motivated then before. Ha.. now i can happily say good bye to waking up wee hours in the morning and joining school students to take bus to work. So April april april. Its good. Heh.

Next: School. Kinda stuggling i think. Business finance is hard. Real hard, guess i have flunked the test the other day.. totally messed up my calculations. Not enough practice i think. *Im doing revision very soon as toodar-san has said that she will force me to study every sunday whenever possible.* ok.. think that would help me to pull through this module. As for the other two modules, well.. shouldnt be much of a problem. (Hmm.. every sem, there is always this specific module that would make me feel super stressed... Sem 1 was Com Law, Sem 2 was History of Management Thought, and this Sem, Business Finance.) man..

And finally toodar-san. Hey hey, without knowing, 2 years just flew by us, wait.. its 2 1/2 already. Ha. Thats fast.. We just went up to Genting the other day to get some cool air.. Doing the usuals of bowling, singing, munching, eating.. or to simplify, 'nuah-ing' ha.

Oh ya! We did something different this time round.. we went to gamble! hahaha... for fun that is. Hey I won a mini-jackpot too.. but its too mini to wow anyone la.. haha.. anyway, all winnings are donated back to Genting Corp. Man.. no wonder Singapore wants to open IR.. its like super easy money.. saw how the banker just clear the table of bets every minute... scary.. and its easily 1000 bucks cleared off the table and into their company each time.

Fun fun fun.. looking forward to next trip. Good to get away every once in a while and run away from work and school.. Ha.. Hmm.. really wanna thank her for being there everytime, she's like the person who has suffered most from my complaints and stress that i accumulated on work or school. *Important Note* i complain in a nice manner and not venting anger or frustration. So pls do not get the wrong meaning in yr heads.. Im not some mean boyfriend who ill-treat her one ah...

Hmm.. what else do i have to update? Err.. Reservist soon.. man.. Im gonna be in this attire again very soon.

Man.. Ok.. time to go i guess.. (Better start preparing for this R day.) boo.

2009-01-29T00:32:00.003+08:00

Check this out. Just happened at the apartment facing mine... in fact just behind Seng Siong! At the strike of 12... nightmares for level 2 to 4 at Blk 233.

Man.. Chinese new year and such things happen. Boo..

Anyway, I'll update on another day.. Gotta return to bed now.

2008-12-08T01:50:00.003+08:00

Its a hard decision but I still gotta do it..

A trusted bike that has been with me for the past 3 years. Never failed me before when I need to rush from Point A to Point B.. Nicknamed 'Bubbly' by my gf and has been very useful to us whenever we need to head out to town or for late supper at Xin Wang or to some places where public transport is hard to reach (One Rochester/Dempsey/Altivo/Prive etc.)

Now, it may just retire and rest after serving different owners for the past 11 years.

If you are wondering what am I talking about, basically its very simple.

A few days ago, I've met an accident. Crashed into a pickup while heading to work. Im physically ok, but my bike is not.. Repair costs will come up to $1500 and its quite unlikely that I'll be able to claim insurance as I'm partially at fault. Besides, I'm not interested to be drawn into a long drawn battle of deciding who's right, who's wrong and the risk I'm taking when I'm opting for this battle is that if I lose, I will have to pay even more than that stated amount (Lawyer fees, etc.) Whats the point of fighting or claiming then since the cons seems so much worse than the pros. Whats the pros then? I get to ride my bike again and FOC for repairs. (Im not riding too long anyway) Not very attractive. So, whats the other option?

Simple. Send my bike to scrapyard and get back partial cash for cancelling the COE. Probably about 700-800 plus dollars. And with this amount of cash, top it up with a few hundred more to pay the fees needed for a 2nd hand car that may be more useful in the future.

But. Should I head into this liability? That is something that I really have to decide soon.

2008. What an eventful year for me. The end of the year is approaching, yet I'm heading into the new year at a rather low point. (like the financial market) Personally, this two months has been challenging for me. (If you have read the previous post, you'll know why..) Was thinking december would be better. Ha. How much better? I've met an accident. How good can it be?

Oh well, I've said it a million times and i will say it again. I've hit a low point again, but. I will bounce up and return to the top. What doesnt kill you makes you stronger. I dunno if my character has become stronger but sometimes, it really made me frustrated. Every once in a while these kind of things always happen. (Thn again, who says life is always smooth sailing?) I had a rather difficult period while overcoming the previous accident and now this one doesn't do me good. Anyway, it may just simply be a sign indicating hey, its time to change to a car dude. Still, I believe I'm still lucky as I escape this accident with minimal injuries. (No abrasions at all, I've only suffered bruises from the knock and a tiny little harmless crack in my palm.. thats all)

Read up this article that happy people will actually influence other people to be happy. So I'm trying to be happy despite all these happening. I'm trying to find the silver lining among this clouds.. Ha.. Positive. Positive.

And.. Christmas is coming!! Whats the plan for this year? :)

Anyway, this seems like a tribute to my bike.. so why not i just display some pics of my bikes. Ha..

A makeover done on bike

The first time she took pic with my bike..

The female owner of 'Bubbly'

And the owner-cum-destroyer of 'Bubbly'

Alrighty. Let's close this issue and move on for a better tomorrow. Nights :)

2008-11-09T21:04:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Don't feel really good coming to this weekend. A number of reasons actually. Been a stressful month for me with Bank exams and personal exams... at least.. well.. all is over. But. The biggest disappointment came. The last paper. History of Management Thought. I've failed my essay due to my own carelessness and writing out of point. (But hey, how says those things i wrote can be motivation factors. Must it be only that 3 guys? Maslow, McGregor and Herzburg. (anyway i did write on herzburg.. still. Damn that lecturer. Nvm. Thought i would still have some hope in passing by doing well in my exams.. which is practically my only chance of revival. Guess what? I have to really THANK the lecturer. Gave us useless tips and says that those are the qs that will likely will come out. Hey, if it's 5 out of 10 qs that came out. I'm good. But.. ZERO. Can u imagine the feeling of literally being cheated and staring at a blank piece of paper? Plus, somewhere in yr mind is just thinking. Damn. I've to take this subject again. Hai~! So I tried. Write and tried to be creative with all my might and use my best memory to guess for the correct answer. Looks like its not exactly what I thought they are. Wrong after i did a check back home. F***.
Or maybe. I can just blame myself for trusting so much on the tips and neglecting other topics. Damn me thn.

If the paper has not push me down thn this will. Right after taking the paper.. Went back home to use the com.. to my horror. DBS is retrenching 900 staff. Ha. What a time. And at a time that we relationship managers are not performing or selling at all. Not forgetting how much shit we have got into even though I am innocent. but to general public. RM? Thats it. They shout, bang table even cry. What am I suppose to do? But honestly, I really do feel for them. Its their hard earn money.. n I cant do anything to help them. I still have to break the news that this is the situation now, the best thing is to stay invested. (Luckily, no High Notes ppl have come yet.. if not..) -.-"""" So yep. Back to retrenchment. No news is out yet. Just have to see how it goes. RMs look vulnerable at this point of time. Hai~! Morale is at a low for now.

I need some motivation. Some morale booster. Fast. Have to climb my way up again. *How come i keep falling down at this time of the year? *grumbles*

To end it off in a positive mode. All bad things do come to an end too. And it has ended. Its a new week coming. Monday. Everything will be good. :) It has to. Ha.. Even economics is like that.. its a wave.. what goes down.. must come up.. it went down.. so it's time to go up. Heh.

2008-09-28T22:53:00.002+08:00

Oh yes.. the F1 has come n past. Ha. (When did i become a F1 fan?) Well, out of curiousity i guess, since there is so much hype on it. Anyway, F. Alonso did a good race, very unlucky for Massa and Kimi, and.. generally, not a boring race that sends you to sleep. Action is everywhere, drivers making mistakes, crashing their vehicles, crew having problems with the car n such. Biggest twist of the event will be that Alonso started from 15th position and Massa started in pole position.. And the result at the end of the race? Change of position pls. Ha.. Ok enough of F1.

Yes, 1 week away for another break! Ha. Hk Hk Hk... fun fun fun. Let's not talk anything about what happens after Hk alright? haha.. (Just in case you do not know.. its tests tests tests) Boo.

Its fast eh? My RM course is coming to an end, which will also mark the completion of Financial Executive Programme which im in for the past 1 year plus. Phew.. it really took a awhile.. Some ups and downs during the phase of the whole programme. Learned a fair bit of stuff, knowing quite a number of people from various departments, stressing on presentations, preparations for events and so on.. All will come nicely to the end as a new chapter will be opening up whereby it welcomes me into the harsh reality world and after getting all the Fiak from everywhere due to some of our products. Its a challenge. And its game on. ( Wait. have to be after my CMFAS modules and personal exams first. hahah...)

Tomorrow is monday.. now i cant wait for sat (toodar's arrival) thn followed by sun.. (HK!) *happy :)*

2008-09-13T05:14:00.002+08:00

Heyo. Just if you are wondering what has happened to me over the past month or so... well.. its simple. I've been rather busy. Hmm.. You may include abit of stress in it as well. Yep. My RM training has started and its packed with product tests daily. On top of that, I have my own RMIT assignments and tests to handle. So.. ya. You know what i mean by busy ya. Therefore upload has been neglected for some time. Heh. Nevertheless, here is the latest update since im kinda free tonight. (Yes its friday and FINALLY friday) Long long week packed with tests and such. *Phew, luckily i managed to pass the mortgage test. its freaking hard~~~! haha..

Anyway, amid of all this stress, i had some fun though. Heh. Went Zoo with toodar, sang KTV, chilled with the gang, etc. The usual things. The little little fun out of the pathetic week. heh.

Oh well. Anyway, happy err.. mid autumn festival? <-- i certainly hope im right. cant be mooncake festival right? hahahha...

And ya, im counting down the days.. to the graduation from this RM course.. to... HK! heh. n yes followed by exams. Ha.

Getting late. Not sure how to update or what to update.. so lets make do with it. haha.. ciaos.

2008-08-10T03:25:00.002+08:00

August. Everything gets so surreal.. in workplace that is. Well, the good news is that my FE training has been cut short. Im going to start the financial advisory course in august, after the short 1 week of leave.. but the sad thing is that.. its on-going during my classes! Damn. I still thought the timing of the course is nicely placed after my exams.. now.. i gotta juggle both at the same time.. oh well.. another challenge. heh. BUT...

its always better to start earlier. heh.. so its still good.

time to go for another short getaway soon. Yeah. During the month of oct that is.. toodar n i have planned for HK since last yr.. so its good news that we are heading there during oct. hee.. time to book tix.. explore the maps on hk.. n lots of hk cafe. ha..

Lastly, the national day has just passed.. Happy National Day anyway. Heh. Peace out.

2008-07-16T00:30:00.002+08:00

Damn.

School started, hell all over again. Ha. Come to think of it.. I had.... 1 week of holiday only? Oh well, whats up this sem u may wonder? Essays essays and more essays. Let's see... 2 essays due in week 6, 1 due in week 10... 2 tests.. n 3 exams. Wow. Its week 3 now and I just started on my 1st essay. *claps* at least im doing something ya? Ok, at least im trying ya? Damn. This sem, (Yes, im complaining) its fully theory.. history of management thought, employment relations, macroeconomics! Help me... i wonder how will i stay concentrated in lectures. (I wonder how i did it last sem too, by the way. ha.)

Arghh. Studies aside. Work has been pretty much the same. Its like im in this auto-pilot mode, waiting for year end so that i can start doing my sales job properly. Currently im just... changing departments, learning and observing n observing n observing. I keep telling myself this is useful.. it is good. Hey, it is good ok? Anyway, mortagage loan anyone? Thats my next destination, housing specialist. Ha. as if. Well, its good to know abit more regarding home loan, mortagage loan etc.. so yeah. learning again. hahaha...

And... Im waiting for October. Hee.. (Not for my exams but for my HK trip!) haha.. more or less confirmed. Yipee! Am just waiting to compare a few more prices around, my deferment for my NS and there I go with toodar-san. Oh yes, I received a call up for reservist.. time to servethe country but... it falls on my exam dates.. so i had to defer.. i hope they do man.. if not.. im going to waste my money on this sem.. coz i will fail everything for missing my exams! damn. Wonder how long they take to confirm the deferment... -.-"

Anyway, its getting late.. i gotta sleep.. my toodar-san should be back in japan today. waiting for thursday to see her. heh. and i'll let my auto-pilot to work tomorrow again. *switch to standby*
Nights.

2008-06-18T22:20:00.005+08:00

Photos galore! Pics of bintan... n some bday pics...

My sec school bunch... Its been a long long long long time with them.. ha...

My cake when we were at PS Cafe! Hee...

And finally...

Bintan! Real R&R over there.. seasports, chill, volleyball, eat, drink... n chat n chat n chat n chat... haha..

As for now.. im looking at marketing exam next week. damn.

2008-06-09T22:10:00.003+08:00

Birthday Fever.

Heh. Once again, a big thank you to everyone who has wished me Happy Birthday on 07062008. If i happen to miss yr msg and didn't reply you a big thank you. Im really sorry as im really being overwhelmed by msgs.. really appreciate everyone's well wishes. Thank you once again.

Been a great birthday for me this year. Thanks to my friends, colleagues and most importantly toodar. She really gave me a big 'wah'. Ha... one big box full of little little sweet things and nice surprises and of coz not forgetting the nice cake that we don't bear to eat the middle portion (thats where our photo is!) hahaa... Went to PS Cafe on the eve of the big day, nice place.. really hidden in fact (We cant really find it actually, was circling around Dempsey area.. finally found the place after some directions given by a.... carpark attendant? ha.. not sure who he is, all he does is directing vehicles to their destinations and respective lots.) As usual, our dinner with long chats and jokes followed by some drinks and the nice surprises when it strikes twelve. Something which i would call, simple yet sweet? Ha.. ok shall not send more shivers down anyone's spine for now.

On the actual day, we went to chinatown to book our tix to bintan (yes we're heading overseas again) followed by dinner and met up the bunch at Bar opiume. Ha.. if you r wondering y r we going overseas again, well, coz my block leave is here and i have nothing to do. 2 weeks rotting at home? ha.. as for her, she has tonnes of standbys and some off-days. Therefore, we decided to head to somewhere near during her off-days. (Intended to go to HK actually, but.. not enough time to prepare for it... luckily we didnt go too.. coz there is a big flood there now. ha..) *back to topic* Bar opiume. For once, everyone turn up for the short drinking session (Its been a while since everyone gathered and all is accounted for.) short update with everyone and enjoyed some laughs inbetween. the next big gathering would probably be 21 june whereby belle will be having her birthday party? (i know i know.. let me guess.. bbq at her place? hahha.. oops.) see what happens till thn. :)

Not forgetting a big thank you to my sec school friends as well, (known them for 10 yrs already!!) organised a KTV session prior to my birthday and gathered everyone.. thank you for the pressies and of coz its always nice to gather and catch up. the next one should be 29 june i guess. (whoa. i realised there are quite alot of june babies eh? hahaha...)

Finally.. thank you to my colleagues at DBS... nice and simple cake during lunch for the celebration and thanks to Vivi.. who constantly is doing all these kind of celebrations. Thank you everyone..

And just if you r wondering about photos... well. .they will be uploaded as soon i get them.. hee.. soon that is. :) till thn.. ciaos.

2008-05-17T03:22:00.006+08:00

Alrighty.

Am back from my trip and its time for some updates. :) Had a great 4 days 3 nites with toodar over at Genting. Ha.. Conclusion: Nice chill out place.. bad food.. still the same theme park. Super good place to simply slack around and as usual, we did silly challenges to irritate each other. Ha.. But we sure had fun.. Talk about to the extent of reliving our childhood days.. going to the arcade and play basketball.. haha... Something to take note to everyone out there too.. Torcello's is a nice place to have yr meals, even though its fine dining, the price is still cheap! (As compared to Sushi King or Kenny Rogers, the food is so much better in Torcello's) As for the other two places... i will keep the comments to myself before i get sued for defamation. ha.

Torcello's!

If you are wondering what u can do for 4 days n 3 nights.. well tonnes of things. And for your information, i took the spaceshot. God im afraid of heights and yes, somehow she managed to convince me to take it. (It's a great experience i tell ya) Hmm.. took most rides there.. corkscrew was down again.. (as always) And ya, lots of jokes were created in the theme park as well. Ha.. Well I'll just keep those moments to ourselves for now.

Clubbing at Safari was err... -.-" Ha. there wasnt any crowd at all! Ha. The bartender did a bad job too.. Apricot Brandy was too light whereas the Vodka Ribena was a killer. We ended up in our room playing cards and start our own challenge with Nite. (A drink similar to Hooch).

Drinks at Safari..

We wore this to go n get our other alcohol drinks

The bus ride back was a torture. It broke down halfway in KL, we had to wait for other buses to stop by and pick us up to return to SG. -.-" And we also have decided that should we go Genting next time, we will take Five Stars instead. There was a point of time there were 6 Five Stars buses parking temporarily for their passengers to get the local products while there is only 1 Konsortium Bus (which is ours and its down)! We ended up being passengers of Five Stars on our way back. heh. No chance of heading to the KTV lounge in the bus and not forgetting trying the massage chair that we were suppose to try! Ha.. Liew.. Wasted our Super executive coach. Boo.

Hmm.. Now its back to work again. Had to adjust the mindset again. Man.. Suddenly dun feel like working. Ha.. Its ok.. am waiting for Sep/Oct.. whereby we might depart to Hong Kong? Yep.. Till Thn. Heh. Now some pics to for you peeps.

Random Night Pics...

London Bus in Genting!

KTV! (System wasnt good though)

2008-05-07T23:39:00.003+08:00

Alrighty some updates for now.. haa..

Hmm.. finally.. exams are over! (Ok, its over since last friday.. just that i got lazy to update..) What i can say regarding this exam is that... hopefully.. i will pass all subjects. :) surprisingly, am pretty confident of my accounts paper, was even thinking that i can score higher than expected.. something which is very unexpected of me ya? (To think that it was a paper i was doomed to fail.. well.. hardwork leads to success? heh.) Anyway, my only fear for this sem is my law paper.. am really hoping to scrape through.. well.. *prays*

And if u are thinking that its time for me to slack.. u r so wrong.. coz i have an intensive module right on the following monday itself. Yes. am taking marketing module for now.. (luckily, it is not as harsh as law n accounts.. so should do fine..)

Next. Short trip to Genting! Ha.. Am eagerly waiting for next week. well.. this is a rather delayed trip for both of us.. wanted to go somewhere in april.. but cant really make it due to other commitments.. so here we are heading to genting for the cool weather. Hee.. Hmm.. the last time we went overseas.. was.. i met her in bangkok for a 1 day 1 nite thing.. haha.. those were the days. :) To think of it.. it was nearly 1/2 yr ago! ha.. so ok.. going for proper relaxing trip this time round.. hk coming soon. ha.

Some photos we shot the last time round when we went to Genting.. ha.. long time back! Heh.. wait out for the new photos ya? hee..

Life in office is pretty ok.. doing what i used to do in the past. ha. telemarketing for now. -.-"" but well.. its useful in the future as i will know how to speak through the phone to get customer down to my branch.. so yep. no complaints there.. (even though there are office political stuff brewing every now n thn... but well.. for me is happy go lucky)

Aight.. thats all for today.. the next update would likely to be after my trip.. Hee..

2008-04-19T22:11:00.002+08:00

Its a crazy April. Well.. sort of. Been a rollercoaster ride so far with ups.. n downs.. Anyway, the big thing that is coming soon is my exams of course. Man.. And i think i need a getaway trip and run away from here for awhile after the exams just to let my mind relax. Good thing toodar-san wants to go to Genting. Well.. not very far, but still.. no stress or work or school over there. Ha.. So far, my schedule has still been jammed packed daily. There are days that i felt that 24hrs is just not enough. Oh well.. the peak will be over in April... but it only will last for awhile. Man. Recevied the schedule for the intensive module. Starts on 5th may. Right.. 3 days after my last paper.. Hello... Cant they give us some break before they try to kill us again? Man... *sucks thumb. cant do anything abt it too. heh*

Arghh. Im whining. Again. Ha.. What's new anyway? Hmm.. though i have one good news. that is.. i managed to pass my accounts test. Ha.. borderline pass though but.. who cares. its better than FAIL. :P

2008-04-12T06:32:00.003+08:00

As promised.. Singapore Flyer! More to follow soon..

2008-03-25T21:55:00.005+08:00

Oh well.. semester is ending.. All is well.. or is it? Guessed I've probably flunk two of my test the other week. Studied the whole week.. yet.. nothing I studied came out.. especially for law.. I have to thank the crazy Australians for releasing false information for us to study... sources of singapore law.. *pui! in the end.. the qs that came out was requesting us to give definitions from another chapter. Damn I feel cheated. And there are only 2 qs for us to answer. 1 Qs is that. Isnt it as good as fail? man..

Gotta buck up during my exams.. I know its still kinda early.. but.. I have some fears in me already. Hai.. Accounts accounts.. Pls let me pass.

Anyway.. life in SIM is rather enjoyable, thanks to this bunch of crazy mates I've met over there.

From left: Timothy, Grace, Lisa, Sherman, Liz & myself

Not forgetting Jing Fang <-- (she refuses to take photos) , lawrence, edwin, gracie, mike, xiufang and a few others whom I recognise by faces only. Ha.. Suffering together with me in this course..

I tell ya, life without them in school.. is booooorrrrinnnngggg...

Hmm.. anyway, toodar has begun her flights with JAL already.. doing very well so far. Enjoyed ourselves here during her little break that she had after she came back from japan. Well, yes i do miss her presence during the year that she's not around.. all is good. :) Hmm.. we went to Singapore Flyer as well. Wasted. It became a small family outing as there are 2 families in the same capsule with us. Ha.. But still, had a nice time looking at singapore from a high altitude. To those who wants to know how is it? Err.. what i can say is that.. its good to go once n experience.. n thats it. hahaha.. oops. did i just say something that i was not supposed to say? hmm..

Ok.. lets upload some photos. hee. (flyer photos gotta wait)

Singapore Flyer photos.... will be released soon! haha..

2008-03-06T20:56:00.004+08:00

Finally, the day has come. Toodar has returned to Singapore and will begin her flights with JAL.*so happy* Well, we can finally put a stop on our LDR and start a normal relationship in singapore. heh. Can't wait to meet up with her for now. :)

Hmm.. Let's start with another good news. My group has gotten the best FE group project. *celebrates* If you are wondering what the FE project is all about, well basically we have to do a project and recommend it to our management to see how we can change our services in order to serve our customers more efficiently. Not a very sound proposal i should say, but i guess the ideas were what they were looking at. Nevertheless, its credit to my group members too. :)

The FEs..

Since stepping out from the branch operations into relevant departments, our time there were somewhat redundant. No one knows that we are going into their departments and the first thing that went into their heads were that we are auditors! haha.. Hmm.. too young to be auditors i guess, but we sure cause some commotion over at the dpts itself. Anyway, the first two days were terrible. We didn't feel welcome and spend nearly 3/4 of our time at the pantry, having our small chats and free drinks. Yes. I guess the most hardworking machine there is the drinks machine. Haha...

Im beginning to see some light finally. Waiting to head over to outbound call centre to have our attachment there and yes pick up important skills which eventually will help us in our future as RM. Prospecting customers. Am just waiting for next year.

Studies. Sucks. Yes i know im whining. Well, tests and exams are round the corner.. and really, like what the lecturer always say, the crazy australians. Ha.. Their marking is sure different from our local style, especially when it comes to law. Man.. my head is getting bigger n bigger each day. Not that i became more egoistic but the occasional headaches that i get after class. This is just not a good sign. Stress maybe? *shrugs*

Till next time.

2008-02-28T01:06:00.004+08:00

To start things first.. i have to congratulate two friends of mine who got married over the last weekend.. Mark and Katie and Sherwyn and Liping.. Congrats! May both couples have a blissful marriage and have lots of wonderful kids. heh.

The secondary school group.

The newly weds.

Anyway, I got a sudden overload of work today. Well, just an update for everyone, I'm out of my branch already, am heading to other departments for training. So there you go.. no longer the 5 mins ride away from home. But.. a 1 hour journey now. Man.. im going to chai chee technopark office for 1 month of training before heading down dhoby ghaut area for another 3 months.. chai chee! *faints. i'll be travelling round Singapore now. From AMK to Chai Chee thn to Clementi.. man.. that's 1 big triangle. But before i do head to the department, one big thing is coming up first.. that is the due date for our current project. Time to show what we have to the management and show them what we are capable of... (im being skeptical here but well.. i dun think it will go well.. coz basically.. the ideas that we have thought of.. they would have probably done so decades ago. -.-") so yes. stress period. for this week. 3 big presentations in fact. first which is happening tomorrow whereby we are supposed to present it to a trainer.. n he'll critique on it. Second day which will happen the day after.. we are presenting to our manger and area managers.. Before lastly Monday is the big day whereby we'll present to our franchise head and CBG head. Talk abt being in a stressful situation eh?
ha.

On a brighter note (have nothing to do with work) well, at least 1 march is round the corner.. which also means that another 5 days to go and i have someone back here for good... Toodar-san! And yes. I do miss her. Its funny that the feeling is kinda different when she is in doha. Probably coz this time round i know she's here to stay and whereas when she was in doha.. we're only hoping for chances that we can meet up. Yup.. after 1 yr of LDR, i will treasure her even more coz the hardest part is over already.. now is the part whereby we have to adapt to each other in singapore.. which is something that i am looking forward to. :) Gone were the days of webcam msn.. long distance calls.. emails.. meeting her once every 2 months.. etc.. Its gonna be sg calls.. face to face chats.. chilling out together.. movies.. ktvs.. blading.. dating.. haha... n many more!
*count down.

And on school. Err.. I just dun wish to talk abt it.. its very tough. man.. i should have known.. ha.. mentally n physicaly shag out sometimes.. ok im whining. oh well.. gonna live through it.. must have the DBS spirit. Can-Do. heh. hai~!

2008-02-06T22:01:00.000+08:00

Woah. Been awhile since last update.. Yep.. stepping into February now.. and the world is turning rather fast. Ha.. as in, at times i feel that 24 hours is not enough for me.. always have something in mind to complete.. Like what i've said before.. this year will be rather tough for me.. studying on mon, wed and fri.. and learning my driving on tues currently. not forgetting on and off there are project meetings (both workplace and school) and some other stuff to handle. On days where i had classes, there is a feeling that i have done nothing that day and *boom* it is time to sleep.. and if i dun sleep.. trouble would arise the following day.. (if u know what i mean.. ha.. sleepy eyes at work aint good)

Well.. though is tough.. am still doing pretty ok in classes (i think) ha.. have to wait for end of sem thn i'll know how i fare.. probably may have slight problems in accountacy.. (due to the theory part) other two subjects that im taking... i think it should be alright.. (hopefully). heh.

Ha.. Hmm.. ok ok.. too much whining. hahha..

Alrighty.. *checks time* hmm.. abt 2 hours plus to lunar new year.. so i'll wish everyone a very happy lunar new year and may this rat year bring lots of luck to everyone! ha.. my year hor! hahhaa..

*peace out.

2008-01-21T23:40:00.001+08:00

And the countdown begins... 6 weeks!

2008-01-01T22:08:00.000+08:00

Its 2008! Happy New Year everyone.. May this year be a good year for everybody!
Now a lookback at 2007. Quite a reasonable year, not too bad and not too good either.

On my own career, enjoy some ups and downs.. Left the media world to enter somewhere i would know nuts about. Banking. Well, its not a bed of roses in this line whereby the money will just flow into your pocket. Its real hardwork but the results can be seen significantly. Began everything at citibank, learnt a number of stuffs over there and of coz enjoyed the remuneration as well but I knew that there wouldn't be any future if i continue my stay there. Therefore once the opportunity of being in a programme that will be groomed as a Relationship Manager, I made the switch and went to DBS. Took a paycut, but well, these are the sacrifices you have to make for the future. Knew some great pals during my time in Citibank as well as DBS. Mark Chen - the cockster who will run for numbers only when my boss wants him to hit his targets. One great chill out buddy and soccer buddy. Evin - the good looking guy in Telesales team, some gals said he look Eurasian. ha.. another great chill out buddy, never fail to go out with us to alley bar after a long day of work and stress in office. Together with these two.. we formed the dark side trio.. Pity though, its only for abt 1/2 yr or so.. I left for DBS, Mark left for OCBC and Evin stayed behind with the citibank team.. Over at DBS, there's John, Melvin and Jayden. the 3 other guys with me together in this financial executives position. Knew them better during our time to work together as a team for Kids@Work. Never fail to go for some drinks and chill out at brewerkz when we have late meetings, just got tired and head for some drinks. ha..

Now in 2008, whereby all kinds of stress will come in plus the fact that we will be RMs by the end of this year. Its a challenging year ahead and where i will really kickstart my career.

The Dark Side Trio.. Me, Mark & Evin

The four idiots - Jayden, Melvin, John & Me.

On my relationship, this year is pretty smooth sailing. One very good thing and worthy to celebrate is that my gf Sher is back for good and we managed to go through a whole year of long distance relationship unaffected. Well, the odds weren't on us being still together given our characters and that we've didn't get together for long before she flew off. Chances of meeting up were very few during this whole year, but everytime when we met up, we never fail to spend the day happily as if we weren't apart at all. Guess the whole chemistry and communication between us works everything out just nice.. Well, she is also one reason why I would want to work harder and succeed in my job.. to be able to provide for her in the future if possible. :) Now in 2008, am hoping that everything would be even better than 2007 and we will just enjoy this year as well. Toodar.. Loving you always. :)

Before she left for Doha..

And now.. Back!

On my personal life, 2008 will prove to be a challenging year for myself. With me hitting the books and study again, it will really see how i can stretch my limit in terms of time management. In between all these, I'm taking a car licence as well.. TP in April.. not forgetting all the insurance and investments papers that i have to take. Well, everyone would go through this part time schooling phase at some point in life.. i just taking it now.. (I believe there are a zillion others doing the same thing as me now.. If they can.. Why cant I?) Yep. Work hard and i will reap the results.. *gambette!!*

On my friends, Chris is working in the banking industry as well.. am not sure if he really wants to be personal banker n but i guess its a matter of time before he steps into this role.. all the best to him.. Ryan is doing well at a media company, finally moved out from another firm into this one whereby he is given lots of opportunity to be a camera asst, or cameraman apart from his job as an editor.. very good learning curve. Darius.. well, is working his way to be a sound engineer, just that he is in the wrong company i think.. Freaking pay him!! ha.. Mark Ke is doing well in own shop thingy, still unsure if he wants to invest.. Oei. The longer u wait, the higher the offer is going to be.. its either now or never mark.. u need to make a decision fast. You have been delaying in for a bit too long ya? Belle and phoe on is happily together and phone is moving to punggol soon.. Welcome to the northern area. Ha.. Looks like mahjong sessions, and hangouts with them is going to be so much easier soon.. All northern ppl! hahaha.. Fu n Qin are just getting on with their own lives.. work hard for your future. :)

The whole gang.

All in all, I wish all of you a happy new year once again and hope you ppl will enjoy peace, prosperity and personal well being.

Peace Out.

2007-12-11T00:11:00.000+08:00

I'm in very good mood this few days becoz someone is back and brighten up my life. Yup yup. Toodar is back... for good. :)

Told ya December would be better. ha. things are looking so much better than before. Ha.. Festive mood ppl.. festive mood..

And 2008.. would be a better year! Oh man.. suddenly I feel old. Ha. I can still recall the days when i was 16 and playing for sembawang rangers youth setup. Not forgetting, Singapore has a GOAL 2010 target whereby we will qualify for the world cup finals. Ha.. Hey, its 2008 already, and where are our lions? hmm.. well.. not to discredit them, they still did well so far.. at least they managed to enter the group stages of the asian playoff. (thn again, i have to give some support to my ex-teammates who are now in the team) *gambatte!* ha..

Hmm.. and me. thinking of some new year resolutions maybe?
Ya. Time to think of some things to fulfill for next year. Some are already in progress.. things like getting a car licence.. getting a degree... etc.
2008.. 2008.. the number eight symbolises 'rich' so maybe i'll be wealthier? hahah.. typical chinese eh? haha..

oh well, time to catch some sleep and prepare for work tomorrow. nitez.
*toodar.. have an early nite as well.. n dun fall asleep during yr training. ha...*

2007-12-03T02:17:00.000+08:00

Alrighty, first post for december. Ha.. Well, in the end, the kids@work event did go well. The management was quite happy with all the things done and the kids had a great time too. The thing that they do not know is that how chaotic was the situation before the whole event started.

There's a saying, what goes wrong, will go wrong. How true. On the day itself, when we arrived around 0530, we were first welcomed by a number of fire engines from the civil denfense. Apparently, they are having a fire exercise on that day in DBS tower. Wow. Lifts cant be used. (we bloody have 500 goodie bags up on the 25th storey!) So anyhow, we managed to talk to them and they let us use the cargo lift. (better than nothing) just that instead of using 3 lifts to transport all those bags, it became just 1 lift. So yeah, we shifted the stuffs.. air con was off.. all of us were like drenched. Next, the technician bike broke down. which also means that we have no access to the auditorium itself. We literally tried to open every single door we can hoping that its unlock and we are able to enter the auditorium itself. Well, true enough, one was unlocked. so ya. threw everything into the auditorium while the caterers set up their own tables. Phew. what a morning. well, the day went pretty smooth.. n chaotic at the same time, but luckily no kids were missing. all kids have fun. that's what matters.

Enough on the event itself... NEXT.
Ahh.. December.. Festive mood.. happy surroundings... Well not so.

Well, how shall I put it.. Hmm.. A number of things happened around me.. seeing couples breaking up.. having problems.. etc.. its supposed to be december.. its supposed to be happy.. having that lovely christmas feeling etc.. well, supposed. Doesnt seem so joyous for now. Well, no matter what, hope u ppl do get yr differences sorted out. Fate has brought u ppl together, whether u ppl wanna cherish it or drop it and live on yr own, its all up to u. A little more effort, a little more sacrifice, maybe things may be more rosy. well, maybe. In life, there is only one thing that will stay the same. That is.. Change.
Everything is changing, every min, every sec. Its how everyone adapt to the changes around us.
hai~!.. Arggh.. talking nonsense.. Anyway, just hope that everything turns out well for everyone. And have a happy festive season ahead. Smile ppl.

2007-11-25T23:54:00.001+08:00

Man...

After a long long week, tomorrow is the day. Whereby we will either produce a wonderful and exciting time for the kids and impress our employers or we will be banished to hell and will hide from management forever. Ha..

Yes yes, Kids@Work is tomorrow. *Stress stress stress* After spending such a long time planning, going through lots of shite from everywhere, both melvin and my backs probably have a few more knives by now, finally its here.

Ok nothing much to add today too. My mind is just full of the program details and how it will be run tomorrow. It has to be successful for sure.

And.. I'll try to sleep now..

And... .... ... ... ...

I'm thinking of her.... toot toot dar~

ok im going nuts now. sleep.

2007-11-20T00:35:00.000+08:00

Hello ppl. Well, haven't been feeling too good lately. (Not sick but more on stress being built up by the surroundings). Yes, the kids@work event is coming up next week. (One of the major reason y im in this state now..) And i tell u, the way the ppl in the this bank do their work.. its totally last minute. Like me now, rushing things last minute as well. We could have done everything earlier, or rather by now, we should be doing last minute preparation for the event instead of still running around confirming stuffs, getting ppl etc. That should be done long ago! But well, we're working with this current schedule. So yes, cant do anything much except shout out here and blow off some steam. Basically, i can foresee lots of problems coming soon, just that at the current moment i still have faith that everything will be ok and trying my best not to worry too much. The poor response of the volunteers is already making me feel like being fried on a saucepan but I still have to hope and pray and chase ppl to process certain stuffs for me. Its like, im in a position thats more like a messenger. Must go through the right channel.. so.. which also means that.. my team did the stuffs.. wanna confirm with me.. but i cant confirm with them.. coz i do not have the power to do so. Therefore, i have to seek the marketing ppl to confirm i can proceed before i can carry out. If I tried to proceed first, everything will be back to sq 1. Won't agree to this, its too dangerous for that. its not possible for this, dun agree on that. So.. If there are so many disagreements, just tell us what to do. Isn't it simpler? Instead of trying to tap on our 'creative' juices and tell us.. no no no. Oh well.

Anyway, something major happened today. In fact, Im very very very disappointed with the team itself. All along I thought the meetings and the discussions are going on very well, everyone is clear on what is going to happen on the event day, their duties, what to look out for, what time the event company/food company would come in.. placements of stuffs etc. But I was so so so so so wrong. In the end, only a few, no. Only 3 ppl know what is actually happening. Out of 13 only 3? Hello. So all along, does it mean that no one has been listening to the meeting itself? Or am i too naive to think that they will be responsible for their work and dun need to spoonfeed information for them? If i have to tell everyone their own personal duties, what they gotta do, who they gotta find.. Thn can someone tell me what do i have to do? Hai~! I'm just feeling lousy now. But I still have confidence with this team. No matter what, its still the first time everyone has to hold a major event. So its natural that there are alot of things we might miss out. Can't blame them for this as well.

On the good side, well, at least we discovered this thing early. Can you imagine that if its not cleared till the event day itself. It'll be total chaos on that day! So ya, now that i've made everyone to take down notes and the exact timing on what will happen etc, at least, i hope, everything will be much clearer instead of simply... err.. i dunno leh..

I still owe these ppl an apology too, forcing them to come down from all their locations to clear everything up. I dont wanna end up in a situation that everybody doesnt know anything. So ya. If i have offended you in any way, Im Sorry. But its a job that we have to do. Having 'half day leave' from work for meeting doesnt necessary means that we can go home early, in times like this, i think its necessary to come down for this instance. I hope im not too harsh.

Argh. Whats happening...

I tried my best to smile when i wake up in the morning... hoping that everything will be good and smooth.. but murphy's law is always right. Each time i stepped into the branch itself.. everything just turns from a smile to a sulk. Can someone motivate me for now? I can't find any inspiration it seems..

It will be a better day tomorrow... it will..

2007-11-08T01:38:00.000+08:00

After one whole hectic week, yes im back to work... barely alive. Fatigue is seriously catching up these days. Lots of meetings to go to.. projects to be done. My brain is now like working as a dual processer in a hyper mode. And most of the time, its to meet dateline. All thanks to reservist. Yes. When i return to office on the first day, its like a whopping 135 emails for me to read. And yes, most of them are quite important ones as they are responses from companies liaising with our bank's events. On top of that, i still have other ad-hoc work to do... and yes, like i mentioned before, the edits do play apart in this added stress as well. But at least i really had a good lift from toodar whereby she came back one of the sundays during my reservist for her interview with JAL. Gave me a surprise call on sunday itself. Ha.. But think someone up there has planned something for us.. I just happen to have a walk out on monday night itself! So yes, met her up and we chat and chat (as usual) before i return to camp later in the nite.. That was seriously an -off- day for my mind and lifts my mood as well.

Not for long though...

Unlucky these days? *shrugs* I dunno man. Its like a bad spell being cast on me these days. And when i most needed an equipment or stuff, it has to fail on me for that particular day or nite. Dropped my phone in camp, LCD cracked, phone went bonkers. had to buy a new one. And at that point of time, i really wanted to have a short chat with sher before i go n sleep. Man.. Come weekend, camera failed on darius when he wanted to do edit.. so he passed it to me. it failed me as well,when i tried to transfer video files into the com. Rushed like crazy, went around to search for another camera in order to transfer the video as its a rush edit.. (the wedding dinner is the following nite!) After the wedding shoot, (at nite) I have to rush home in order to have an earlier rest coz i have to work the next day. It has to freaking rain. And its heavy downpour for a few hours mind u. What the..... Became a zombie at work the following day. Ha. earlier i said bought a new phone rite? My sim card failed me. It was unable to connect for freaking long.. and suddenly it just gets connected again. Man.. Just at that time i need to call my colleague to check on something. Note: this is a new sim card! Have to head down to starhub tomorrow.. WHATS HAPPENING? Well, these are just some of the major events that left a super huge impression in my brain. But the silver lining for all these is that, it managed to get resolved in the end. (of coz after tonnes and gallons of prespiration released from stress during the period)

Like Daniel Powter's song... Because you had a bad day. You're taking one down. You sing a sad song just to turn it around. You say you don't know. You tell me don't lie. You work at a smile and you go for a ride. You had a bad day. The camera don't lie. You're coming back down and you really don't mind. You had a bad day.

Well, change the lyrics in the song pls.. from You pls change it to I.

Alrighty. Time to end this sad stuff on a happier note. Next year I will be studying for sure. The letter has came. Its confirmed. And im going to enroll in soon. (no longer just registering.. haha..)

Peace Out.
P.S. Give me some good days soon ya? Thanks.

2007-10-27T11:27:00.000+08:00

Alright, time for some updates. heh. Well, as most of u might have know it by now, Im back to reservist. Yes. Not the typical slack police officer that u see out there but life practically like a recruit in the army. Everyday we'll have to get up at 6am and we'll have training/drills/whatever is there till late. Not forgetting things like trenching! Of course at times, there are interesting stuffs that we do as well, stuffs like how to storm into a building etc, very much like what u see in movies, special squad storming into a room etc.. alot of coordination and teamwork involved.. ha.. ok not till that extend but kinda near it. The uniform that we have is very similar to that of the army, just that ours is in blue. We too, have to don the helmet, sbo with water bottle etc.. arh, luckily there's no such thing as survival training whereby u'll be left out there in the woods? haha...

Anyway, a good news for myself as well. I've achieved a silver for my IPPT. (Heh, im still fit ok!) Quite happy with the results overall, but am seeing an increase of timing for my 2.4km run.. still, its thumbs up for myself. Ha.. The food intake for myself increased over there as well. BUT. When i went back to branch today to clear some emails and to do some survey stuffs that have to be submitted in asap, one of my colleagues came over.. "Aye Chee Mun.. How come you are back today? Hmm.. You look like you have grown thinner." OMG. Its that thin curse again! Toodar.. i need yr help to feed me more.. haha...

Well, another 4 more days to go before i can resume to my normal life again. Ha.. But its fun in a way, seeing a few of my squadmates after so long.. chatting with them and update each other on very other stuffs.. making new friends.. going through some shite together.. planning our ways how to beat other troops to the washing machines <-- im serious! haha.. We r using hand signals for the plans! hahaha... etc.
Important Note: Yes, pls just keep it once a yr. I dun really need too much of reservist. Thanks a million. Ha.

Alrighty time to do some work.. catch some sleep and enjoy the homely feeling for a while. haha.. peace out.

2007-10-11T18:03:00.000+08:00

2 weeks came n go.. Same goes for toodar.. who has went back to doha..

The waiting game begins again. Ha.. Hopefully december i'll get to see her. Well, hopefully. Of coz if there's a sg flight for her in nov, the better. heh.

Anyway, some pics that we have took during her stay here.. ha. one thing is for sure though.. we ate.. n ate... n ate... probably our gaining weight period. ha.

Midnight desserts?

Pampering her sweet tooth.

Mr Bean..

Desserts again!

Night @ Zouk.

Ktv in JB.. ok the food is not shown though. ha..

Now that she's back.. there's only one thing that is waiting for me next week. Reservist. Just the other day i received this whole box of stuffs for all NS men. Man.. i feel... old. hahah.. You know there's a difference between awaiting NS and reservist? just the sound of it feels old already. Arghh.

Anyway, on that bloody piece of uniform.. gone are the days of normal police uniform that u see daily.. now i have to wear the thick ones (the ones that were worn by the special operations force or rather, more commonly seen by the public.. the mrt task force's uniform)

Take it as a break and go in there to suffer. ha. Congratulate me pls.

At the same time, there are other projects that come in at the same time. -.-"

For no reason, i was being nominated as the chairman of this Kids @ work thing with DBS.. I really have to manage my time properly to do all these things concurrently with my reservist on going. (Didnt i just say reservist is for me to take a break?! not so it seems.)

Not forgetting.. there's the recruitment exercise for the next batch of FEs. Hmm.. im looking forward to this though.. to see how the bank is going to grab those top 20% students and what they are going to offer to keep this FE programme going. Oh, in case you dunno what i meant by Fes, Its Financial Executives. (the one im in.) And yes, basically, this whole programme trains u up to be a holistic banker with knowledge on everything, sets a level above other Relationship Managers or Personal Financial Managers and will groom u into a future branch manager, etc.. anyone interested? ha. Next slot opening this coming jan. heh.

And on top of that.. i have other stuffs on going as well.. Some wedding videos to liaise with etc.. Ahh.. Im going nuts. heh.

Nah. im just complaining. heh. Boo.. Didn't update for too long.. come in here to give a shoutout? hahaha...

Alrighty, trust me, the next post will be on reservist for sure. I can see it coming. And it wont be nice i know. hahahahhaha.. Enjoy peeps. Ciaos.

2007-09-19T22:21:00.001+08:00

Time to give a brief update again. heh.

Anyway, its going to be the weekend soon! And if ur just wondering why am i so happy when the weekend arrives, well, its simple. Coz Sher is coming back to Sg for around two weeks! Yeah. Finally get to see her again after two months? Yup. Shall begin my countdown towards sunday. Heh.

Heh. GNC doesnt really work it seems. Ha. My weight has been stagnent for a few weeks or so. Unable to put on any weight despite the fact that im eating more these days. Hmm... late nights and little sleeping hours? Probably.

Went to my reservist briefing the other day. Ha. 3 weeks of staying in. Man.. bring back the days of Tracom (Police Academy). But, this is much worse i think. Coz.. its not just pure 'tekan' session by them.. this time round.. there is digging of trench, night pt.. etc.. to those who knows what im talking about, Yes. Im in KINS unit. Sounds like infantry to u? haha.. After slacking in the force for 1 1/2 yrs as NPC officer.. now for the rest of the 13 yrs, im going to be carrying a m16 running around. Ha. Gone were the days of carrying a pistol. heh. -no worries- im just taking it lightly. ha.. gonna go in.. taking 'leave' from work and enjoy my time. Besides, it will boost my fitness level for sure. Need that badly, i think. ha...

Exercises these days would be sunday and monday night soccer, even Chris is joining us so that he is able to keep fit as well. Ha. Its like once u enter work, u have no time or probably too tired to do exercises. Oh well, at least, with this weekly soccer, we get to keep ourselves fit and have bonding with the friends there. Im still trying to take another day out for swimming though. Hasn't been happening so far.

The whole world is joining the banking industry. Whats happening?!

Peace out.

2007-09-02T03:19:00.000+08:00

With a blink of an eye.. Sept is here. Yep. And of coz, im so looking forward to end of sept as toodar sher will make her way back to this small little dot for holiday. It will be another tiring trip back of coz, all those ppl who have not met up with her all this while would want to meet up and catch up. Everyone misses her so much.. haha...

Oh, the unlucky thing is.. my block leave falls on the days that she will be away with her family to Thailand.. so ya, intended to make do with it and see what will happen when end sept comes.. Luckily, all of it was resolved in the end. She's returning Doha around the 8th oct.. so ya, negotiated with the bosses and i managed to postpone my block leave to a week later. Able to spend more time with her too. Heh. Phew~! If not, my block leave would have been so wasted.

And yep. Oct is a month that i will be MIA from DBS for a while.. ha.. let me see.. prob work abt a week or so only. Am on leave on the first week of oct.. second week will be back at work.. and thn. RESERVIST will come. Man.. all the way till 1st nov. Boo. Ok, on a brighter note, at least, once im back to the branch.. i would have graduated from the counter and become a customer service officer.. YEY! no more long hours of stress and counting cash. Heh. And from there till next yr, everything will be very fast. Coz its like i change post after every 2 months.. so ya. Prob the next entry, u'll see me typing in.. Oh im finally a Relationship Manager after so long.. hahah... (ok thats exaggerating)

Oh oh! Another thing.. If u guys still do not know it by now.. our dear Mark (Ke Ke) is attached. Congrats to him and Val.. Welcome to the bunch. Heh. Heard she's quite good in singing as well. So ya. *thumbs up* we have a new ktv kaki joining us soon. Talk abt KTV, when was the last time i sang? Hmm... *ponders* Oh well.. ok ok i know someone is complaining there and has not sang longer than me. (To that someone: We'll sing once ur back ok? Have a few sessions before ur being deprived of it again. heh.)

Hmm.. looks like the group is finally sorta complete now. Everyone is more of less attached, much to the delight of all of us.. we've been looking forward to this day for so long.. (Need a family pic with everyone? hahaha..) Phoe On - Belle, Chris - Mad, Mark - Val, Fu - Qin, Me - Sher, Ryan - Grace (upcoming, not official yet.. soon. i hope. haha) and Darius.. u better buck up. hahaha... oops. Heh. Its always nice to have all couples hanging out and doing things together etc. It gets more fun in a way.. Ha.. Toodar. SIA.. quick. hahaha...

And... We're turning 1 soon! Yep. Next end month will be the day that sher n me are together for a year. TIME FLIES. yes. Hai~! To think that that day i would be in kins unit undergoing training. man.. in-camp somemore. Not even sure if i can give her a call on that day. Boo.

Okie. That should be all for now.. :)

2007-08-26T03:17:00.000+08:00

Hola!

Back again.. hmm.. let's see is there anything to update..

Well, nothing really. Probably the only thing to update is that, im gonna take up a 21/2 yr degree course in SIM soon. Still pondering and finding out more details before actually signing up for it. Oh well.. if everything goes well then.. next jan onwards.. i'll be a super busy man.. school n work. *shrugs* see how it goes ya.

Business Mgmt (Mj. Econs & Finance). Comments anyone? Ha. Well, wanna take something that is more general instead. Learnt the lesson from FSV actually.. taking a course that is too streamline may not do good either. Oh well. At least.. I enjoyed those days as a student and manage to have one bunch of nice friends from there. So ya. Still no regrets for taking FSV. heh.

After 3 yrs.. im back to school. haha... Not sure if this brain dead person is still able to cope with all those exam stress... etc. oh man.. i think i have to split myself into.... 3 or 4 to manage everything. hahahhaa.... *bish* ok mun. ur thinking too much. take a step at a time.

Oh ya.. something strange happened at my place last night.. it was around 2 am whereby i felt my surroundings shaking.. (freaking hell im not dreaming coz im bloody awake and have not even sleep yet). Thought it was some earthquake thing thats happening overseas and sg felt the tremors. Went over to my sis room and asked her if she felt anything. No, Was the answer.. n i checked the news this morning if there were reports of earthquakes.. none either.. so.. whats happening?! Bloody hell..seventh month. hahaha.. oops. Nah.. didn't think much into that actually.. din really care.. went to sleep later in the nite. hahaha...

Lastly.. Sep i round the corner! Yipee! my toodar is coming back soon for holiday.. hee.. cant wait. :)

2007-08-05T02:03:00.000+08:00

Saturday nite.. im home.. bored.. missing toodar.. what else? foul mood.. need someone to inspire me and lift me up from this dead zone. Office isnt good these days too. Seeing the devilish side of human beings are just -sad-. Sceptical, hypocrite.. what have u? Oh well, probably humans are born evil. Just that they hide these dark sides and use them when its beneficial to them. I feel the pain.. on my back.

*Like what toodar says -ignore-*

But its rather hard to act friendly.. i need to find the mask that i havent been putting it on for a long long time...

Whatever. Ignore me. Im just.. rather down. Probably disappointed by the things happening around me these days. I need some inspiration..

Gimme awhile.. n i'll be back.

2007-07-25T12:25:00.001+08:00

Having my off day today.. came across this song.
It's a nice song...

Sheryl Crow & Sting - Always On Your Side

My yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away
But every now and then you come to mind
Cause you were always waiting to be picked to play the game
But when your name was called, you found a place to hide
When you knew that I was always on your side

Well everything was easy then, so sweet and innocent
But my demons and my angels reappeared
Leavin' all the traces of the man you thought I'd be
Too afraid to hear the words I always fear
Leavin' you with only questions all these years

But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally
This isn't how it's really meant to be
No it isn't how it's really meant to be

Well they say that love is in the air, but never is it clear,
How to pull it close and make it stay
Butterflies are free to fly, and so they fly away
And I'm left to carry on and wonder why
Even through it all, I'm always on your side

But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are we left to wonder, all alone, eternally
But is this how it's really meant to be
No is it how it's really meant to be

Well if they say that love is in the air, never is it clear
How to pull it close and make it stay
If butterflies are free to fly, why do they fly away
Leavin' me to carry on and wonder why
Was it you that kept me wondering through this life
When you know that I was always on your side

Enjoyz.

2007-07-22T04:00:00.001+08:00

Today we have two keywords.. FRIENDS & LINKS. Man.. got a shock of my life today..

Happened to meet up with Mark (citibank) and his friend kelvin today. (Met kelvin a few times.. nice fellow.. ) So after we had finished a few rounds of pool, went off to starbucks to get a drink. Kelvin thn bumped into his friend.. who is somewhat familiar to me.. So i asked.. Err.. Liwen? And it is! Oh man. What a small world. So naturally asked abt occupation etc.. Guess what? Citibank. Ha. Another citibanker. Both Mark and me were like.. -.-" ok... So after a short while we went off to have our drinks.

When we were having our drinks, we just started to chat abt our own network of friends.. and shocking news that rocked 3 of us came.. Mark, Kelvin and my friends knew one another.. we just happened to be all our friends' friend. -.-" Note: We are all from diff pri..sec.. n poly..

First person: Mark
Has a colleague Lucky over at OCBC, who happens to be my friend when I frequent Zouk with Daren in the past..
Knows Daren, Adrian & Natasha
Knows Kat, Theresa, Karen, Ivan, Zhiqiang..
Happens to be in the same dept back in police with my sq mate Nic<-- His junior
Knows one of my childhood friend Tingli

Second person: Kelvin
Has an ex-gf named Stacie who happens to hang around with my toodar and her friends in the past. (Seen my toodar before in NP)
Knows Daren, Liwen, Fareeza & Eric (I used to play bball with eric back at poly days, lost contact since.)
Knows Bee Ling (sec school friend)
Knows a few more other ppl whom i find the names familiar but prob would recognise the faces instead..

-.-"
What is this. Friendster?!
I have no other friends that has so many links to my network of friends. haha.. Scary..
And it all started from just mere colleagues with Mark over at citibank.. And thn met Kelvin.. and before u know it.. everyone knows everyone.. Oi! can the world be slightly bigger? hahaha...
Ha.. Oh well.. Let's all be friends.. (Lame) haha.. enjoyz peeps.

2007-07-17T00:26:00.001+08:00

Ha.. did something silly.. but quite interesting though.. Came across this from another person's blog..

Look at my toodar lookalikes.. haha.. Not bad not bad.. and now for myself..

Ok.. lookalike with Jolin Tsai n Jay Chou? This is so wrong.. hahaha... Well anyway, if u guys are interested.. feel free to go to http://www.myheritage.com/ and see who u lookalike ba..

Can see that im quite free today ya? hahaha...

2007-07-16T21:45:00.000+08:00

Its been a really long while.. but well. Been super super busy. Yep. To think that i have time to update now which is like probably around one month since i last updated ya? Ha. Well, yeah. Been busy with wedding shoots right after my brithday week till yesterday. (I still have edits to do mind u) Anyway, its a been a four week work without any rests in between.. Mon to Sat is normal work, and come sundays, its shoot for weddings. Phew~! Finally some nice break coming up. (Im giving myself well deserved break as well.. haha..)

Inbetween these intense few weeks, i had a wonderful weekend on 07/07/07. Yep. Toodar had a flight to bangkok.. so I packed my stuffs and flew over for a short trip. Yep. 1st flight in the morning.. reached around 8 plus there and.. hell, bangkok streets are still jammed. man... finally reached the hotel she was staying in around 10 plus.. and we head off to chatuchak for shopping and breakfast.. wait.. lunch. ha.. Went from location to location and not forgetting doing some charity..

The charity fish!

Other pics we took...

Chatuchak!

Roomy roomy mirror shot.

Ha. there u go.. some pics. Of coz its super happy for both of us, as we manage to see each other in just a month's time instead of sep.. Hmm.. hopefully she'll get a flight to SG come august.. ha..

As for me.. next weekend.. i need to head to town.. to walk or whatsoever.. (I've been stuck to AMK for too long. hahaha...) Buy some stuffs maybe? Have some drinks with friends.. just chill out! haha.. get back some own time to do my stuffs.

Till thn.. peace out. Ha.

2007-06-11T23:52:00.001+08:00

This week passes quickly.. and there she goes.. back to doha. Yep. I believe all of u would have know it by now that toodar had came back to sg specially for my birthday.. supposed to surprise me so that we can go on a trip overseas together.. but well.. i surprised her back instead with the notice that DBS wanted me to join them on 1st june. Damn. So ya, instead of both of us going overseas.. its pretty much of her coming back to Sg and visit everybody. Heh. Plans has since been shifted till a later date.. if not thn it'll be depending on her schedule and layover period.. i'll go over to the foreign land to look for her. Yep. So ya. Birthday week. Tiring but its all worth it. Of coz having that special someone to be with u despite the current circumstances is something even more lovely.. Thanks toodar. For travelling miles back just to celebrate with me. *hugs*
Im looking forward to july now. :) *SG SG*

Anyway, one rochester is quite cool, just that the prices may be slightly on the high.. spent the sat evening there together with the bunch of lads. Its been a while since the whole group met up too. Ha. Mark, Ryan and Chris are busily fishing these days.. whereby they can be a fisherman in the future.. The rest.. well.. pretty tied up with their own stuffs.. that includes me as well. Hmm.. What i can say is only having extra freelance job is not easy especially if u r needed to crack yr brains to look for ppl.. equipments etc, so that the job can be done on that day. Not forgetting, ended up more busy with my work stuffs rather than personal life.. Ha. n the best thing? Everything just comes together at the same time. For so long.. no news on any wedding shoots.. suddenly within the few days.. there are a few shoots and edits and not forgetting im only being noticed at nearly the last min! man...

Oh well anyway, im still currently undergoing training till the end of the month.. (something that im not actually looking forward to) becoz for the next 4-5 months.. im a teller. Yeah. So im hoping for this phase to passby quickly though. Heh. See how it goes ba.

And yes. Kinda miss those fun bunch over at citibank. Ha. Probably coz we go through some shite together.. so thats y can really click with them.. miss those days whereby everyone would just gather at our area.. n simply chat. And before u know it, our boss came from behind and stare at everyone. Or things like its the end of the month.. n everyone just help each other to hit their targets.. so its like everyone asking around.. who hasnt hit yet? and all these type of stuffs during the stress period.. *nice ppl* haha... Oh well.. those were the days i should say..
Note: I don't miss the job. Its only just the people there. haha..

But given a choice, i would still make the switch. Its upgrading for me. so no regrets or whatsoever. im just looking ahead at the challenges.. for this moment.. its... teller job. hahaha...
-.-"

Those few days that you are here..
Are the ones that I truely treasure..
Walking down this path we chose..
Seems difficult, but we're handling it well..

Looking at the path ahead..
Moving forward hand in hand..
Pacing ourselves for the desired goal..
Together, we'll make miracles work..

Thanks Sher.

2007-06-04T00:38:00.000+08:00

Just like that. The last day at citibank quickly flew past me.. Well, Its over. Thats all I can say. Ha. Still remembered the first day at citibank, totally lost and not sure how to sell.. Thn after a while, I've been hitting my targets and of coz kena different kinds of shit and stress at different times. My boss stated that I'm a fast learner and has a desire to pursue. Hmm.. this is what i needed in order to survive in this fast paced society. The hunger and drive, all will be brought over to DBS now.

Started the first day at DBS on friday. Its more like a orientation in the end. Played those ice-breaker games, and know more about the bank stuffs. Suddenly, its like I'm back to my poly days whereby u need to know yr friends (colleagues) around u. Kind of funny feeling though. And thn the shocker news came. We (all 14 of us) are going through some experience training right? Yup. So experience, all of us thought that, maybe we'll be at our branch, attached to one relationship manager and see how they do their stuffs. But well, no. Ha. The good thing is, I'll be posted to AMK Hub Branch. So its just a few bus stops away to workplace. Cool Eh? Gone were the days of ERPs and expensive food. Haha.. The sad thing is.. I'll be a Customer Service Officer.. or to simply say, Teller for the next 4-5 months. Talk about starting from bottom huh? Haha.. I'm really doing that man. All the guys, (basically just 4 of us), look at each other stunned. We'll be behind the high counter. Did u ever see guys as a teller? Well I don't. (But thats getting to sex discrimination) haha... Hmm. If I look at another point of view is that, no matter what, I'll be at DBS for the next 1 1/2 yrs. And, we are always named as the 'superstar' bunch, coz we're supposed to be the elite who were selected from the hundreds who applied, and this is the first time they are starting this programme for diploma holders. (Formerly for degree grads only) So we're kinda guinea pigs in another way.. but thn.. Talk abt pressure even before u start to sell yr stuffs eh? Ha. Anyway, since im not gonna do sales for the next 1 yr, this is the best time for me to get my driving licence. Haha.. (Notice that i'm still stuck to my seat not applying for it yet. Man. Im so Damn lazy.) Ok soon. One of these days ok? After this busy week first. I'll go.. *promise* hahha... I think mark is pretty correct too. (Mark Chen not Mark Ke) the other day he was talking to me abt banking jobs and he was like saying.. dun u feel lazy after working in citibank? Ha. pretty true. Its like work home work home. All the energy were spent at workplace apparently. And all other stuffs were being postponed time n time again.

And... regarding the 'dark side trio' Ha. Well, Mark is joining me at DBS as well, but he'll be at POSB. Not sure which branch he'll be posted to, but hey. He's fast! Haha... They gave him a confirmation right at the 2nd interview. He's good. Heh. Thn again, there's nowhere to climb back at citibank. So, stepping out to the next level is always a good thing. Enjoy the 'upgrade' bro. Poor Evin. Now he's back to square one again..

Well, anyway, Chris wants to join the banking sector now.. another intruder like me? Ha.. Requested my former recruitment agency's number. No problems. Just hope that he really intend to make the switch and be prepared to get pressured down here. It ain't easy. Haha..

Alrighty. Update's done. Till another time.. :)
Peace out.

2007-05-27T18:05:00.000+08:00

Another update after a long long while. ha. Well, guess by now all of u should have known already. I'm leaving Citibank for DBS.. This time its climbing up the corporate ladder too. From acquisition officer to relationship manager or rather most ppl will know this term, personal banker.

What have i learnt from Citibank? Lots. And not forgetting the stress level there is rather high too. Though i have to admit that the money is good as well. But well, no point staying in a stagnant place whereby u cant really climb up. The only thing that will make me feel sad for leaving citibank is the people and colleagues. They are a bunch of nice fellows.. Especially the *dark side* ppl. Ha. Mark, Evin and me.. the evil lot in the team. Never fail to have a good laugh together. Well, I wont know if i would have these type of colleagues over there.. or is it just some boring bunch who only cares for themselves. *shrugs* But these ppl are meant to be friends instead of mere colleagues. Hope they will do well in their sales monthly too. And all the best to the team.

On a personal note (I think its bad), I feel that i have changed already. I've become more realistic now and i think my temper is getting bad too.. I get flared up easily. Not good not good.. Tell me if u ppl think that im really getting way way off ok?

And well, as for toodar and me, ha. time really flies. Without knowing, we've been together for some time and approaching a year in a couple of months. Ha. Together technically but not physically. One is in a land of sand.. the other in an island filled with ppl. But we're still good. Plans to Taiwan are up and kicking. Heh. She's got some sh*te recently, just hope that her next flight wont have such things. It'll be smooth. :)

The bunch are into books recently. Ha. Books as in studying and upgrading themselves. Fu is going for degree, mark for diploma, chris is on the way to grad. QY and Belle are already studying for their degrees as well, darius is waiting for his sat test n such. That pretty leaves ryan and me. Ryan is thinking abt getting a hospitality degree as well.. and im just thinking of a mass comm degree. But on my side, it wont happen so soon. It'll only start to take off once i settle down in DBS. Which pretty takes me a year before i can consider about studying. All i can say is that.. I hope to do well as a Personal Banker so that i can continue to climb up as a Branch Manager or continue in sales line to be an investment banker. Pretty far fetched isnt it? Heh. *shrugs* a step at a time. Thats all i can say.

And yes. Not forgetting, I want to get my car licence soon. Am sick of riding. Haha... Nah, not exactly that, but I'll need one in the future anyway. Plus, its always better to have more drivers in our group. Haha.. And of coz, when toodar has a flight back to Sg, its always better for her to sit comfortably in a car rather thn being a pillon on my bike. So ya. Driving plans coming up. But the first thing is still, getting my butt off this chair and register for my basic theory. hahaha... As for getting a car? Ha. that'll have to wait till my banking post kicks off well.

So ya.. that'll be all this time round.. Enjoyz.

2007-04-30T16:29:00.000+08:00

Simple update this time..

Heh. Enjoying a longer weekend for this week, took leave today.. which entitles me to 4 rest days! yes. sat- tues. shiok. Wasted. Should have a short getaway inbetween. Ha. But well.. short getaways but no one is available.. whats the point. So yep. Just have proper rest at home.. coz next month is just a repeat of what has happened for this month. Wednesday.. the day when everything starts from zero all over again. Argh. Ha.

Didn't do anything much over the weekend as well.. These days.. Its very much work, home, work, home.. weekends will be like.. chill out, home.. Gone were the days of clubbing.. doing stupid stuffs, staying out till late etc.. Signs of getting old n too tied up with work? Heh. Probably. Shite. Life is getting boring. Ha.. Must do something to rev it up abit. Cant let it rot like this.

Hm.. on toodar. She's been busy and maxed out on her own schedule so far.. with all the flights, jetlag and little rest days, it has been draining her energy away. Each time when i do talk or see her online, she sounded very tired. This poor gal. *hugs* Well, i just hope to see her soon again. If only she has some local or nearby flights.. that'll be great.

Okie.. time for some soccer action later. ha. Playing soccer with those lads later..
Update again next time.. :)

2007-04-12T23:57:00.000+08:00

Just as the week was coming to an end. Well, i had an early intro to friday 13th. I thought, hmm.. ok finally managed to slog my ass off to get what that botak wanted and im safe. Ha. thought i had turned the corner and concentrate on other stuffs. Well, another setback today. Accident. Fiak. I mean what the hell is happening to me? First of all, i got caught in the rain while riding home.. so i went to KK Hospital to seek for shelter. Next, i couldn't start my bike at all! Damn. Luckily Rix was somewhere near and he came over to assist me for push start. It works (luckily). So ya. Went off to have a dinner with him and to thank him as well. After that, as i was riding home.. Ya, met the accident. All the bad things just happen at the same time eh? Got stressed, felt lousy throughout the week. Finally settled and felt much better, met with an accident today. Ha. But thn, on the bright side, im god-damn-lucky. Because the accident i had was along CTE. YES CTE. I really should thank everything that i survived and only had a few minor injuries. But every vechicle is practically slow at that time. Same goes for mine as well. If I can push the blame to some other thing.. thn it'll be.. the wet surface, paint marking on the ground and the idiotic car who jammed his brakes in front of me. -.-"

Whatever. Lucky? unlucky? Depends on how we look at it. So... Ya. Another hole gonna be burn in my pocket now. Damn. What feelings do I have now, you must be thinking. The ans would be.. Surreal. Yes, like i just woke up from a nightmare. Now i just hope all good things will happen now. Bleah.

Thoughts were really running wild the moment i felt my wheel giving way along a bloody highway. -control fiak control-...-where is the car behind me-...-is he tailgating me?-...-will i be knocked?-...-how do i control this so that i would be safe- *bang* skin n metal hit the hard surface. Its a miracle how everything can cramp into my brain at that split second.

Anyway, im alright peeps. (Bandaged again though with a few muscle strains.) Well, take good care of yrslves. My accident free record in Singapore is being written off. Its a 1 now. Ha. N its the last.

I should check on my riding technique as well. I should ride slower too. (Wait. I got this when i was at slow speed. -.-") Well. You know what i meant. Ha. I'm being told that im beginning to get reckless these days. ha.. oops. Check check check. safety safety safety. Nitez.

2007-04-10T22:47:00.000+08:00

Stress? Venting anger? Irritated? Yeah. Probably everything. Not a good day it seems, well.. hasn't been real good these few days.. Yeah. Normally around now, i would be stress on getting numbers to hit my basic comm, but no, i'm not getting stressed on that but on some other product which 1) does not give me incentives 2) i see no reason why should i focus on that product 3) i need to hit my own commission stuff. 4) now im doing it, sacrificing my time on my own targets so that i would not be forced to go work extra early and get insulted by this XX boss who use vulgarities. NB who do u think u r?!

*Pissed off* You can scold, u can nag, but never ever use vulgarities on us. If u think ur so damn good, thn bloody hell pls go get the products yrslf and dun insult us. Not to me, not to any of my colleagues, not to my team manager too. Arse.

Anyway, if u guys dun understand anything i say, its ok. its just meant to vent my anger thats all. Nitez.

2007-04-05T02:27:00.000+08:00

All i can say today is... contradiction. Ha.

Typical Gemini.

2007-03-30T00:16:00.000+08:00

Oh ya, finally managed to have some time to do some updates here. Yep.

Anyway, everything's been good so far. Still doing fine with my work at citibank, toodar is going to come back in april for a longer time (she has a flight back), everything is smooth sailing. Ha. Now i understand the difference between student life and work life. In work life.. its really work-home-sleep schedule. Coz probably by the time u r done for the day, u would have little energy to do other stuffs. All u feel like doing is to grab yr dinner, slack at home, watch some tv or doing yr personal stuffs thn sleep. Its only till weekends thn u'll really feel like heading out, staying late and relax. Seriously, Im really impressed with people who tell themselves that they must jog or exercise 3 times a week. And they do it! The level of discipline to do that is super HIGH. Hai~! Sadly though, on my part, exercising or doing sports has been really going downhill. It used to be 2 times a week, heading to the gym or pool.. Well. USED TO. Ha. Now? once a week? Damn im getting slimmer as well. And i hate it. As much as i want to grow bigger in size, funny enough, it just goes the other way. -.-" Well to be exact, im not exercising enough, so ya. That explains y im in this state. Bleah. Chee Mun, Chee Mun. Time to buck up and do some serious gym work or exercise. Arghh. I keep telling myself that, but once i step into my house, the mindset will change automatically and says... tomorrow. -.-" Discipline...Flat 0. Haha...

Heh. On my own future. Well, its still either to kill that thought completely or getting the job. Yes, you guessed it SIA. Had in mind of this air-steward job for the longest time, but kept denying myself from trying it. Well, this upcoming one, Im just going for it. To kill that little thought maybe? Of coz it'll be good if i get in, but well, its still positive even though I didn't get in, coz at least, a part of me will say. Thats it. Move on. And this won't trouble me any longer. Had been contradicting myself all this while.. kept saying I will not go.. i will not go.. but in my heart, i wanted to go and try. Damn. Now is the time.

You may ask, ok mun, what if, you didn't get it. Whats next?
Well, if i didn't get in, thn i think it may be time for me to get a degree. A part time mass comm degree most likely. And change my job to a non-sales job in a bank. After the degree, i may change back to be a Relationship Manager, or some marketing department in a bank. Thats how it seems so far.

And if u were to get in?
Great. Start flying, save money and do some business some years later.

Well, all these are just thoughts. Whether will it happen, it still depends. But i know i would want to stay in the banking industry if possible. Ha.

And.. On toodar.
Everything is good between us, going to be 1/2 yr soon. Didn't even realise that time really flies. Well, its still an early stage of a relationship. Besides, what we are looking at, is the future and not now. Ha. She's been doing well there too. Getting independent and knowing what she wants, which is good of coz. Can see that she has a much stronger character now than before she left. Well, everyone is changing constantly, and a couple will have to see how we can adapt to the changes around us and grow together. :)

On friends..
The cliq has been great of coz. All of us are out of the national service thing and doing our own work, exploring into our own individual career.. Chris is still working at his 14days week job, but he intends to quit real soon as he really needs to find time for himself n such. Ryan is lost, currently freelancing and trying to start a career in the media industry.. Mark is pursuing his studies in hospitality soon, and gonna work part time meanwhile.. Darius.. well.. getting into interviews and also proceeding to US to study soon maybe? Heh. Fu.. Quitted his job. (which is good for him), currently freelancing as well and looking for a new job with better salary soon. QY. Still at embassy.. trying to quit? hhaha... Belle.. coming back to banking industry? Yep. Thats all the little updates abt them.. And ya. been into this blading craze recently? ha. Chris went to bought blades.. -.-" Good for him. Make sure he will use it. haha.. (I think this craze wont last long.. hahaha..) <-- im evil. haha..
And ya. Meetups has been limited to weekends, well. rather reasonable too.. coz with everyone busy with their own schedules.. its kinda hard to meet out in the evenings.. thn drag ourselves to work the next day. And for some of them.. even weekends they may be caught up with work. Yep. Thats working life for u. :) Enjoyz.

Ha. Its getting late too.. I should head to bed as well. Nitez peeps.

2007-03-22T20:44:00.000+08:00

I've been busy. Ha. Yep. Simple as that. Not alot of time to update this too.. but well, will try once i have the time k? Hee.. So i shall let those cobwebs stay for awhile..

Will update once i have the time. no worries on that. :)

2007-02-26T22:49:00.000+08:00

Back from the KL trip, different purposes for different ppl i guess. Ha.. For Mark, Fu & QY it'll probably be relaxing and buying their hookas (Shi-sha pipes). And as for me.. Well, I can finally see my toodar of coz. Well, finally a flight to KL, we're praying for Singapore flights in March already. Ahh.. Cant wait to see her again in fact. :P

So it is, after my work, took the bus up to KL alone to meet up with Mark, Fu n QY. Reached around 11pm at Puduraya Bus Terminal. N trust me, I have a carrot head. Well, I needed to take a cab from the terminal to the Berjaya Times Sq Hotel.. which is like a few km away? But after asking abt 5 taxis, all charges are the same.. 30RM. I mean what the hell. I don't pay 15 Sing for a short trip.. not forgetting.. its not even midnight yet! Bleah~! Cant expect me to walk all the way to the hotel alone too. Getting late and well.. the security there is still a.... *ahem* Anyway, ya after I reached the hotel.. the next thing I know that those 3 ppl are like drunk. Ha. Too much of shi-sha for them.. Lazing around..smoking and watching tv. Ha. Thanks to Mark though. Still remembered to get a packet of claypot rice for me. But in the end, both Mark and me went out to get more food for everyone. Prata, soup kambing & burger. Ha. evil supper. After all the food, its my turn to indulge in the shi-sha. Basket all of them got one hooka for themselves. -.-" haha.. nice nice! No need to go to Arab St in the future.. Its Bullion Park Condo. hahha... Slept around 4 plus in the morning with me feeling excited of the following day. toodar..

Yep. 25 Feb. Day to remember. Ha. Got up pretty late, was supposed to go for breakfast, but all of us decided to give it a miss in order to gather more sleep. Ha. So yep, took a shower, dress nicely. Prepare to head out to Crowne Plaza Hotel.. (the hotel Sher's staying in..). Well, planned to get some nice blue roses for her.. but.. I think our neighbours aren't romantic ppl at all. I can't find a florist in the whole of Times Sq! -.-" Man.. its ok.. at least I had other stuffs with me.. (I had this huge bag of groceries together with some other stuffs as well..) Ha. She can afford to brew soup every once in a while now. Ha.. Bought different types of herbal soups for her to try. Yep. With my bag and smartly dressed attire.. the carrot is out on the road again. Took a cab to her hotel, which isn't far as well. Cost me 13Rm. -.-" Trust me, later u'll understand why I would say I'm a carrot. So yup. Waited at the lobby for her arrival... Est. time of her arrival to the hotel would be..1 pm. After waiting for awhile.. I received a call from Sher's sis. She's staying in the hotel as well, together with her friends. So yup. Went up and waited for Sher and her parents as well. Come 2pm. No sign of msg/phonecall from toodar. Her parents arrived though. So all of us waited in the room.. n... started to play cards. hahah...

Finally around 230pm, received her msg saying that her flight was delayed for 2 hrs.. therefore she'll was so late. And she's on her way from KLIA.. which well, will take another hour for her to reach this hotel.. And yes, around 335pm, she called to inform us that she has arrived and told us her room number. All of us made our way down to the hotel room while we booked another room very close to Sher for her parents.

Seeing her again after 3 months...
Ha. Let me see what do I have to say..Getting slimmer it seems but definitely fitter. You're able to see her muscles on her arm clearly. Prettier. (as always) Not much of changes, still the same Toodar Sher that I've known. :) But this poor gal won't be able to get much rest for that day as well.. her flight to KL was a midnight flight.. .so she has already missed a night of sleep.. now that she's in KL and with all of us around for the whole day.. she was only able to rest for a hour plus before she will make her 7 hrs journey back to Doha.. *hugs* hope she has plenty of rest there after she got back.

Well, staying away from family needs lots of courage, coz after you didn't get to see yr family members for a long time... when u get to see them, you don't feel like leaving them at all. Well can clearly see that she's very happy throughout the day in KL, even though she's physically tired. But the happiness she felt of seeing her family members again after a long period of time is something that I cant explain. All I can say is, its a very heart-warming feeling. But as the night falls and her time in KL is approaching an end, her mood began to falter too. As she had to leave them and not knowing when will they be able to meet again. But well, she's a strong gal. Hopefully, she'll get a trip to Singaproe in March. Thn, she'll be able to see her beloved grandma as well. 2-3 yrs? You'll get past easily. You can do it! :)

Can see that her family missed her alot too. Her dad went round searching hard for Kayas as she needs to buy quite a number of them with long expiry dates. There's no kaya in Doha. Her mum tried her best to stay awake in the middle of the night and stay with her even though she's dozing off on the bed.. and of coz, lots of little little other touching events. :)

As for me.. Well, its a happy-sad feeling for me. Its like, I can finally see her again in person after so long. And just as we felt so happy as if we are back in SG, time stole it away and let us return to the normal state again. She had to leave and fly back to Doha. Boo. But of coz, getting to see her is always better than not getting to see her at all. So no matter how long is the stay in Sg or KL, if she has a flight there and I have the ways of getting there without affecting much of my schedule, I'm there. Argh. I can tell you, the moment she has to leave for her flight, the feeling is so much similar as the day she left for Doha for training. Though no tears, Its the, -I know I'm gonna miss you- and -I really hope to see you soon- type of feelings.

But yes, (contradict myself now). I'm happy to see her living in her dreams now. Doing what she wants and likes to do. Good good. Even though we may suffer abit for both of us now.. We're still looking whats in store after the 2-3 yrs. So.. we're still relying on patience, faith and love. Ha.

And not forgetting.. she knitted a handphone pouch for me!!! Loved it. Combination of two of my fav colours, black and white and it fits my handphone perfectly! *super happy*

But thn again, my valentine's day pressie to her is still missing. -.-" boo..

Well well, anyway after she went to gather with her team members and wait for her team bus, I made my way back to Times Sq hotel too. Got a cab in the middle of the night. (5am to be exact) and ha. This time, the cabby uncle is so nice. Told him to run the meter, but he refused and just said 5RM will do. Ha. <-- now u see the difference? Haha... night time is cheaper than day time. -.-" what the... (I may sound cheapo but hey, the rates are too much la! I believe if its ran on meter, it'll probably be around 3 plus? But giving 5 to this uncle.. no problem. Can tip him for being so nice too.)

So I went back, gathered with the peeps. Rest and went back to Sg the next day. Arghh. How I wished that its longer. Reluctant to go back to work though. Bleah. hahaha... *looks at the time*

Well, hello citibank. im back at work. Later. Nitez peeps. Enjoyz.

2007-02-19T03:16:00.000+08:00

Happy Lunar New Year everyone.. May all yr wishes come true in this lovely piggy year, maintaining good health in your family, earn loads of money, have lots of happiness and be forever happy! :) Yup.

Ahh.. its another year. Ha. Yes yes, visits to relatives will always end up with three major questions. 1. Are you still studying? 2. Been through NS? 3. So what are you doing now? Ha. Have to practically repeat the answer to nearly every auntie, uncle that I've met. Cant blame them too. We see each other like once a year only and to them, I'm always the young kid running around and well.. ha. Studying for the past twenty plus years. So naturally these questions will come without fail. Its like when I say, Oh I'm done with my NS already.. and their reaction will be.. "Wah.. so old already ah.." *laughters*

Talk abt old. Felt old naturally too, coz the kids of my cousins would come and say.. happy new year uncle. -.-". Ahh. I never fail to correct them to say "kor kor" instead. But my cousins will go.. No.. they are one generation younger.. so u r uncle or "biao shu" to be exact. -.-""""

And yes. Super stress day tomorrow. Ha. Visiting Sher's family without her around.. its.. -.-". Haha.. looks like I still have lots of -.-" coming up. And that lucky gal, escaped a stress day for her coz she's unable to visit my family this new year.. But well, given a choice, she'll rather spend the new year in singapore with her family and take that short period of stress.. haha... well, there's always a next year? haha...

Hmm.. I'm already counting down. Another week to KL, and I will see her. *looking forward* Ha. Im turning crazy already. Cant wait for next sunday! Hee...

K K.. getting late as well.. shall have some rest.. n *meet the parents* tomorrow. Ha. Nitez ppl.
Once again, Happy Lunar New Year. Enjoys.

2007-02-04T02:30:00.000+08:00

This has got to be the worst diarrhoea i ever had in my life so far. Normally, the diarrhoea will go away after a day.. or worse to worse.. two days like after i cleared all the impurities in my tummy? But this one? Ha. lasted 3 days and even the doctor is not sure what exactly is the problem. He's like saying.. I think its food posioning. And wrote some prescriptions. So now i have to pop quite a number of tablets 3 times a day.. that'll be 4 carbon pills, 2 diarrhoea pills, 1 antib. each time. 7 pills. haha.. i wonder did i ever take 7 pills at once before.. *thinks* dont think so. heh.

Anyway, good for me though, I managed to recover by night time.. or rather, the medication works! Yey. Was much better later in the day.. dun have to make all the 50m dash to the toilet each time. So ya. on route to recovery now.

But on the other hand.. in such a short while, I have 1 mc. Well, I was supposed to go to work today.. but.. *toilet dash.. how to work?!* heh. Well well.. Boss.. genuine sick.. not chao geng! Ha...

Ok.. now on other stuffs.. too much of diarrhoea info. haha..
Hmm.. guess what? My toodar is going to madrid next mon! Shiok. Madrid madrid.. will i get anything from madrid? hahaa.... Well, she's going to be constantly flying around now.. and not forgetting a KL trip at the end of the month! *celebrates* finally i can see her after 3 months? yup. Even though it may just be a very short stay for both of us.. its enough. We weren't expecting to see each other that soon also too.. so since we can see each other so soon, the better! heh.. N ya, not forgetting, I'll see her family members as well. Haha.. well well.. stress time again. ha.

Oh, just some little update on my job, still adapting to it. Banking. But im going all out on roadshows though. I want numbers and I want to exceed the targets. Only thn, I'll see the money. Like what I've said. Chiong ah! Am chionging now.. but not sure if its enough. I'll see how I fare at the end of the month.. thn during March, I can analyse if I'm doing alright, or I have to work much harder. Wish me luck.

And well, kinda late now.. Am gonna sleep. Didn't really sleep well for the last 2 days coz of the bloody tummy. *yawnz* nitez.

2007-02-02T00:22:00.000+08:00

sick. grouchy. unwell. simple as that. sums up to today.

2007-01-22T21:15:00.000+08:00

Woah. Its been real tiring these few days. Spent lots of time on reading notes and memorizing stuffs, which are far worse than what i've done in school?! Never seen myself working so hard. Ha.. Well well, i still have a couple of exams coming up.. and not forgetting, i just did another today. I have 2 more tomorrow. Not easy to be an acquitision officer after all eh? hahha... The only good side is that.. those officers that are on the job now are earning decent salaries, so i really hope i can achieve that too. As for now... i have to return to study again real soon. heh.

Hmm.. been busy with toodar's stuffs as well, hee.. well well, someone's birthday is coming up.. so has been running around, looking for materials, stuffs, etc. to make the pressie. Now that its done and sent.. all i hope for that it'll reach there in one proper piece.. Pls Mr Postman, handle it with care. If not.. the presentation would be messed up! ahh. This is one thing that i dun really like abt posting. haha.. u never know what will happen to the interior when the other party receive the parcel. well. I would be disappointed if it doesnt turn out to the way i want it. Its different from giving by hand, whereby u'll handle the parcel with care till u pass to the other party? heh. Not an option for us though. so.. i'll still leave it to dear mr postman. So toodar, if the presentation of the pressie looks messy and everything is out of place. You'll know what happened. haha.. But i know u'll love the pressie. :)

Anyway, another news of my toodar, just a info for the rest though. She's graduating soon. heh. 25th Jan, its her wing day. And after that, she'll officially fly... with Qatar Airways. So yep. Very happy for her to get through the training course finally and of coz, with superb results. (she keeps scoring full marks.. spoiling the market there. hahaha...) No more stress on exams.. etc.. Its just flying and pure enjoyment. (Note: by saying that, i don't mean that its an easy job. hey, you got to read up on the plane before you fly and be tested before boarding. If you fail to get through, there'll be no flight for u. Besides, standing for long hours, weird sleeping hours.. etc. Who says its easy?)
But as for her, heh, shouldn't be a problem. haha.. all the best dar. happy flying! :)

Well, sorry to the guys if meet ups were lesser these 2 weeks. Need to seriously study for the papers daily and had to do abit of shopping around town to get stuffs. Wouldn't want you ppl to follow me blindly and run around town. So would rather search for the stuffs alone... And after that.. i'll see you guys on upcoming weekends? Yep..

*Yawnz* Damn, I have a few chapters to go through. Im back to books.

2007-01-17T00:15:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow... or rather later.. it'll be a whole new world. a whole new experience. I'm ready. Are you?

If you are, hop on to this new world. It may be bumpy or smooth.. We'll only know when we are going through it. Let's buckle our belts and.. enjoyz.

To the money out there... CHIONG AH!

2007-01-13T01:45:00.000+08:00

The rain was pouring outside for the whole day. I'm in office feeling jittery doing nothing. Reading books and watching mtv for half the day today. Well, and when the time is up, with little goodbyes, I bid farewell to Embassy, and maybe the media industry. It will remain as my interest. Something that will stay in me.. for the rest of my life. Its my last day there. Well, had my fairshare of stress and free periods. But, before this little passion turns to hate, its best to leave and pursue other stuffs.
I had a good time there. They are nice ppl, but somehow, I'm the evil one. Im sorry, if u guys ever know the reason. Its the nicest way to go without hurting anyone.. I just leave silently.
Personally, I felt extremely lighter today, the uncomfortable feeling in me will finally be taken off for good. I felt so relaxed. Wasn't in high spirits for the past week or so. Had problems in me and kept questioning myself. But all is well now. The load is off, finally.

Major things coming up. Plans to be made, things to be done. And one of it, is of coz my toodar's birthday. Hmm.. seems like handicraft is being applied in this one as well.. cant wait to see the end result though. But heh. Takes time. Not forgetting the one after that takes time too..

Sometimes, friends around me will ask.. How do i maintain such relationship? Or stuffs like.. how many times will the both of u see each other a year? or maybe.. Aren't U afraid that she'll turn materialistic? Well, honestly, I dunno what will happen in the future, so i bloody hell dunno how to answer some of yr questions! Ha. We're keeping it going, having our fingers crossed, with faith, patience, love and constant communication to make the impossible happen. Besides, no one believed in us anyway, so.. we're just breaking the norm? Yeap. So far, what i can say is.. its been lovely and I've no regrets or second thoughts for having her as my gf.

Anyway, hasn't been seeing the guys for awhile.. we've all been busy and the idiotic rain just doesnt stop. Isn't it? Like what everyone has said, when its raining for the whole day.. it seems gloomy.. which naturally, ppl tend to be lazy to go out and would rather stay indoors. Pretty true huh? Well, applies to me for sure. I hate to be out in the rain. (not due to riding, but will be generally lazy) ha..

Won't really be riding pretty soon, gonna go public. Time to enjoy the journey, listening to music, appreciating our local transport system. Ha.. for an impatient guy like me who's so used to getting the said location at the quickest time.. its kinda hard. But, im gonna adapt to it real soon. My bike will be used for occasions whereby im running late.. and social hangouts.

Changes. Lots of changes happening everywhere, I've made a drastic one though. Its like swinging a bat from left to right. Major switch, hopefully, for the better. :)

In times of need, I know that you are there.. Thank you for being there for me.. everytime.

2007-01-10T08:42:00.000+08:00

Morning ppl.. Hmm.. will have to get used to these timings real soon.. Ha..

Anyway, im left with 3 days at my current company.. and these 3 days seemed so long. Probably its due to the transition period, that makes u have weird feelings sometimes. Start to think whether will this decision comes back to haunt me. (AHH. Ok i know too much thinking done.)

Damn. I always do that. Worry too much. How do I lessen my worries.. Any ideas? If u do have good suggestions tell me ya? But if u are going to say something like jump off the buildings or what thn.. save it. I still pretty like my current life, even though, its kinda messy now. Haha...
Well well, as time goes by.. it'll get sorted out. It has to. Ha.

Hmm.. met up with my pri school friends the other day, good to see them after such a long time. Its even greater that we are still 'brothers' since the day we graduated from AHPS. Even though our meet ups were like only a mere few times a year, we still enjoy the laughter, the fun, the crap, like old days. Never once we felt that we have become strangers. Ha. Thats 16 yrs of friendship.

Freak! Thats long. 16 yrs just like that. For a while, I feel old. Haha..

And now... let's wait. See what happens after 15th.

Half of me am excited, the other half am worried. Its not easy to have this mixed feelings happening together at the same time. Argh..

2007-01-06T17:27:00.000+08:00

Ho ho. its a new year. hmm.. first post of the new yr? ha..

Anyway, am very glad that my toodar has finally fixed her wireless modem. Which simply meant that she doesn't need to spend hundreds on internet cards anymore! She can be online anytime she wants once she gets back to her hostel. Thats good news for sure coz she doesn't have to burn a hole in her pocket anymore and problems with the limit of the card wont exist. ha.. well, our conversations get cut off in an instant once the credit has ended. so ya, with this now.. no such thing will occur. haha.. (unless something like the taiwan quake happens again and everyone cant access the net or log on to msn messenger)

And ya my time at embassy is up. Ha. To be exact, next week is my last week there. Fast eh? Yup. On the 15th onwards, its something new. Well, I'll update u ppl again if im doing well there. ha. Having mixed feelings now though. But it doesnt matter anymore, going by gut feeling now. ha.

Rather lazy saturday today, doesnt really feel like heading out. Just wanna slack at home. haha.. Wait. When did i become so homely?! -.-" Oh ya, thn again, i have to do more work outs when i have time. Its been a long while since i last did such things. and hey. one of my resolutions? getting a bigger built.. more gym.. more swimming. think i shall head to the pool today. rather lazy to lift weights. hahhaa... (damn im lazy)

Okay.. its abt time too. yck swimming complex. here i come. heh.

2006-12-31T17:11:00.000+08:00

On the last day of 2006... Here's what I wished for my great pals in 2007..

Chris: To advance in yr career and have more off days for yrslf.. Getting a car licence as well?
Darius: To be able to find a job, do well in it and finding a proper gf, not... etc. (you know what i mean)
Fugene: To relax yrslf, give yrslf more breaks.. And time to seriously change yr job, switch company and earn what you truely deserved
Mark: To be able to find what you truely enjoy in yr career path and to find a nice gf. You have a certain charisma. So we have no worries about u. ha. And YA! To be less fussy.
Ryan: To have more confidence in yourslf, believe what you believe in and do what you feel like doing. Open up yrslf more to others, you'll attract a nice gal along the way. :)
Belle: Remain contactable. Ha.
Qinyun: Changing jobs soon too? Heh. Good luck gal. Cheers to yr future job.

And finally my toodar..

Sher: To embark on a wonderful flying career in 2007, going to places you love to go, having an enjoyable stay for the next 2 yrs, staying happy and cheerful always, retaining the same lovely character that you always have and stay loving as toodar sher. Yr toodar mun will be here, waiting for u, patiently. :)

2007, for myself will be a step to see where my future lies. The clearer picture is still not out yet. Probably by end jan, maybe everything will be much clearer? Yeah. I have taken the risk. So now it depends whether will it backfire or will I do well in it. Wish me luck ppl.

To everyone out there, always remain cheerful, appreciate yr friends, love yr dear ones, fillal to yr parents, be happy with what you have and have a great 2007 ahead. Work is secondary. ha.

Be optimistic ppl. Enjoyz.

2006-12-26T23:50:00.000+08:00

How's christmas everyone? Heh. Caught in the rain? Encountered flash floods? Yep. Thats more like christmas in Singapore these days. December just gets bad. I remembered last year such similar incidents happened here as well.. the rain lasted for a week plus.. And it rained non stop near the christmas season. Hmm.. Deja Vu? Kind of. Its happening again this year.

Anyway, am very happy today coz the parcel which I've sent a few days back has finally reached Sher! (TO DARIUS: My gf name is SHER not TOODAR. Stop telling or 'informing' other ppl that my gf's name is toodar. -.-") <-- I'll continue on that later. Anyway. Yup, there was a slight delay though. Calculated and intended the parcel to reach Doha around Christmas Eve or the actual day itself.. well.. in ended up on Boxing Day instead. Heh. Speedpost being lazy eh? Ha. Nevertheless, at least it managed to reach there in one piece and in proper. Hee.. Ok so here's the picture of what I've got for her, packed nicely in the box..

Pink shawl together with a pocket watch tied around it. And 2R photos of the both us and a christmas card. heh. Exquisite.. Black and gold.. i like. hee.. Ok.. i may be too bhb. but who cares. ha..

Anyway, had a mini christmas countdown with the guys, lester n gf n a few of lester's friends. So Lester was asking me.. 'Hey chee mun, who's that girl in your photo? Your gf?' I was like ya.. and before i could say anything.. our mr darius cuts in n said 'ya. her name is toodar.' I'm like.. thanks ah darius. -.-" To think that lester nearly believed that her name is really toodar. -.-" So told him Sher's actual name.. but got bombarded by the guys... -.-" 'Mun..tell us why you call her toodar?' -.-". Hmm.. kpo bunch of ppl eh? Yup. So I shall repeat myself here.. n don't ask me anymore. haha.. Its just the way how couples call each other.. some call each other darling...dear... dar.. honey.. etc.. so we have our unique ways of calling each other.. toodar.. n i have no intention to explain y toodar. coz even if i do explain, u ppl probably just find it duh~! so ya. lets keep it as that ya. and again. Her name is Sher. Understand darius? hahaha...

The guys..

Ahh... With a blink of an eye, another year has passed. Still remembered last christmas how we got drunk in darius place.. and... we wrecked his room? haha.. we had someone breaking his bed.. two people playing guitars despite of his parents nagging.. one person reaching his hand in the toilet bowl to clear up some clog in there.. one crying at the balcony.. three people sharing the drinks while playing indian poker and all three went bonkers.. one idiot referred the cup as a bottle.. er.. cant remember the rest though.. So when there's a bunch of guys gathered together, celebrating some events or what so ever.. they have hard liquor and a place for them to lie for the night.. it simply meant nightmare. Or probably we're just bad at drinks. hahaha...

Thn again.. who cares. haha.. just that we got banned from having any parties there anymore. hahha.. right move auntie n uncle! haha... curb us from drinking that much as well. hee.. ok.. fu is still waiting for his 1 keg of beer... hmm.. new yr? ha.

Toodar.. hope you had an enjoyable christmas eve dinner with yr friends too.. :)

Enjoy this festive week peeps. Peace Out.

2006-12-23T01:53:00.000+08:00

There I'll go again. Its the year end. Heh. Merry Xmas everyone. 2 days away? Yup, prob wont post one on that day so its an early one for everyone! haha..

Hmm.. let's see what I can bitch abt today. haha. Oh ya, went for some interview thing today.. kinda backfired. The fellow from agency is like, hmm.. its very hard for u to get into this sector coz u have no prior experience.. im like.. 'i know. thats y im looking for positions that dun need experience and u can learn before u climb up slowly?' So ya. Kinda tell me all the hardships that I might take if Im really changing to this other sector.. Hmm.. did I go there to look for jobs or I went there for a counselling session?! Hello. Anyway, I'll see what happens. Thn again, don't expect me to quit this to look for another one. This current one is going to save me from going broke. Ha. And of coz, you learn something along the way.. so ya. Learn while I search for a suitable one? January. More vacancies maybe? yep. till thn.

Oh, suddenly had the urge to take up the mass comm degree in SIM. Be it sucky or what. at least i can expand my jobscope.. now i feel trapped because im stuck with a fsv diploma with no relevance to other sectors. hai~! see what happens in 2007. should have a clearer picture by thn. sad ya?

Anyway, I've sent my toodar's pressie as well.. just hope it gets there in one piece (she knows it. so its not a big secret anyway. but of coz she doesnt know whats inside. -.-").. cant imagine those terminal fellows throwing the packages around.. *shakes head* there goes all the presentation in it. Maybe I'll need pictures to show how it should have been. haha.. Anyway, would love to see her reaction. Hee..

On the guys.. meet outs are like kinda fewer now (more on weekends now).. probably coz we're busy with work. Especially chris. Not even a day off yet. But he loves his job. so.. good for him. haha.. fu n me have to work till late most of the times. so ya, by thn we'll just feel like going home to rest. ok maybe not fu. he's weird. haha.. he can sleep at 4 plus and be at work at 9. who freaking hell sleeps so little and still be happy abt it? ok i don't. i need 6 at least. that'll keep me from dozing off in office. As you know.. editor is a very lonely job. sometimes, it gets so bored, u'll feel like running to the toilet and wash yr eyes to freshen yrslf up before u fight the battle. haha.. maybe i should learn to be like chris. get a big piece of note and fill it up with i 'love' my job. and whenever im fed up.. shout i love my job. haha.. probably get sued by him for copyright. haha. oops.

Long weekend. Finally. Festive week. good good.. I like.. can sleep longer.. slack longer.. hang out till late.. drink till u get drunk (last christmas.. its chaotic) .. chat with my toodar longer online too. heh. ok maybe the last part not that possible actually. she's busy with her studies there.. having exams week in week out.. and she's scoring 98 or full marks.. keep up the good work! think thats the most hardworking time in her life so far.. she doesnt even study this hard during school terms. ha. well well.. passion. ha.

hmm.. i don't even know if im heading a correct direction with a change of career path. after all that i have studied..and now im heading into an unknown area. but if i don't try.. i'll never know. some succeed, some don't. i just don't want to fall into the latter category. we'll see. when i do finally switch, wish me luck. cheers.

I seemed to like taking risks all the time. First is relationship. Now is career. Ha. I like to play with high stakes?! hai~! -.-"

2006-12-18T01:30:00.000+08:00

Rainy sunday i should say. Spoilt the day too as well. Wanted to have a game of soccer with the guys and the standard beef noodle after morning soccer. heh. spoiled by the rain.. so anyway, stayed at home for the whole of today as well.. had something to do anyway. yup yup. had wrapped the whole pressie for my toodar. *so happy* heck. i was so impressed with myself, i took some pictures of it. but well, not gonna show it out now. coz someone reads my blog as well. heh.

so ya. monday again tomorrow, and more of a festive week coming up. with christmas and new yr hanging round the corner.. its time for some celebrations, parties and some new yr resolutions. but sad to say, cant celebrate this festive season with the person i most wanted to celebrate with.. toodar. its ok.. there are always other years. hmm lets take a look at my resolutions for 2006. (if i could remember)

1. apply n start to get a driving licence.. <-- postponed to 2007 it seems. haha..
2. getting a class 2 licence <-- not gonna take it anymore.. happy with 2a.
3. getting a job <-- yeah. checked. quitting soon as well. -.-"
4. i forgot abt the rest. hahha...

ya. probably, coz i didn't make any list and stick it up somewhere in my house whereby i can see it everyday. thats y i cant even remember what i wanted to do or get for 2006.

2006.. in general, has been a ok year. start of the year was really low though.. i believe all of u would still remember that at the start of the year i had an accident in johor on 1 jan itself. its like telling me, hey this is a bad yr. ya. had some trouble gaining back confidence in riding after that.. really took me sometime to regain all the composure in riding again. well.. have to thank the guys for being with me during that difficult period. the end of 2005 and beginning of 2006 was a very bad patch.. with my dad passing away.. thn my uncle.. thn my accident.. everything is not going right... things were running wild in my mind back thn. well, really battled my confidence and self beliefs back thn.. had the thinking of Y MUST IT BE ME kind of thing.. its like im flirting with depression? ha. thinking back, i probably had that too.. but luckily the later part of the year, everything begins to pick up.. mid yr.. was rather ok.. everything returns to normal.. nothing bad happened.. nothing fantastic happened either.. its just.. normal. ha. except im beginning to stress myself to look for jobs and wondering what am i going to do in the future.. (heck this thing still lingers in my mind till now. hahhaa) hmm.. what else.. mid yr.. busy with my police work back thn? ya with all the elections and so on. so ya thats abt it thn. End year.. from ok.. to good. yep. yr end has been rather positive.. ORD from NS (finally).. got a job (though quitting for greener pastures), know what im going for (abit least) , got to know sher whom later will be known as toodar (<-- definite highlight of year 2006).. had some troubles among friends during this period too.. but it has been put away, and some positives came out from it.. sher went to doha, but we strongly believed that we can pull through, both of us are still happy.. so ya. good to end 2006 in a rather positive note..

2007.. just hoping that the good will get better. plans so far are..

1. Get a new job.
2. Save up for Doha trip.
3. Car licence!!!
4. To have a stronger built.. more gym n swimming.
5. Pending for new ones to come into my mind. haha..

yep. thats it so far... happy holidays people. good nite. :)

2006-12-17T04:07:00.000+08:00

Hmm... *hums* im very happy today .. coz i got what i wanted for toodar. hee.. (though spent alot of time walking n walking.. but heck who cares. its the end result that matters. hee..)

yup. now i need sleep. nitez.

2006-12-14T02:01:00.000+08:00

Ahh.. I miss...

Anyway, happy birthday markie! (though its abt a day late. heh. should be 13/12/06) but its the thought that counts right? heh. like what you have said.. cant 'tiao er lang tang' anymore. haha.. bro, ur still in NS.. can afford to spend this december happily at least. hee.. enjoyz.

Ok. plans somewhat decided. Banking or Events. The answer will be revealed soon.

n.. toodar toodar toodar! ok im going mad. hahhaa...

2006-12-12T01:31:00.000+08:00

Straightened out some thoughts finally.. after hearing and listening from everyone. Thanks ppl, for being the listening ear and giving me opinions. Well, this is what I've come to after long thoughts for the past few days.

In the end, I think editor is not my cup of tea. Not that I dislike media industry or whatsoever. Well, in a way, I don't suit into the life as an editor. Yes. Passion for Film, Sound & Video. But well, this passion in fact has long been dead. And I realised it already during part of my NS but I just don't believe it myself. I just wanna give it a shot to see if its due to the lack of practice or really the flame has died. Now that I've gave my shot. I've come to my verdict even though its abit too fast u may say. But hey, from a job that I'm supposed to be happy with it till a stage like this is terrible. To me, I think this is suited more for a hobby, something that I will still like to do.. but not professionally that is. I'm not someone that can sit down there for the whole day and communicate with the computer only. I mean I have a sharp butt (You know what I mean) I have to move around. Talk to ppl, get exposure and contacts and so on. Im not someone who can stay in office. At least, that little doubt in me has been confirmed. I don't see myself doing this kind of thing for the next 10 yrs. Which is also why, since I'm still young, to change a jobscope or industry all together. A new yr is coming soon.. and that might just be the day that I'm looking at a new perspective, new angle and new future. I've been in a mess for sometime. I think I was still able to clear this up. Sorry to those who believed that I can make it. I failed. Thanks to those who listened to my complains & naggings. Basically, toodar and the unbeatable bunch.

To my future endeavours, cheers.

2006-12-09T15:38:00.000+08:00

Had a long chat with toodar last night.. she kinda brought me back to focus again.. Ha. Wake up call? Nah. Reassurance? Maybe. Its more like giving me a lift when I was really down. Thanks toodar. Your words really did make me clear up my thoughts. Heh. Wasn't myself for the past few days and irritating everyone out there complaining abt my job. Well, stress maybe. Ha. Thn again, Im in office now. Ya. Sat work. Sad eh? Well. Thats life.

Ha. read some horoscopes thing last night regarding gemini n aquarius while waiting for toodar to be online. Heh. too free maybe? But well, happy after reading it though:

Gemini & Aquarius

When Gemini and Aquarius come together in a love affair, the pair can enjoy a wonderfully stimulating mental connection. Gemini is in love with ideas, and visionary Aquarius is full of them. Both of these Signs need their independence; they can easily provide this for one another since they understand the need so well. The only trouble that may arise is if Gemini begins to think Aquarius is too stubborn in their thinking, or if Gemini dawdles a bit too much for Aquarius's fast-paced, forward-moving standards. This type of problem isn't likely to cause a major disturbance; in general they work very well together and understand one another on a very deep level.

Both Gemini and Aquarius have a great deal of energy. Both their minds are so quick they can easily come up with newer and better ideas and, with Aquarius's determination at the helm, put their ideas to action. They both rely on their quick wits, especially Gemini, and both Signs abhor wasting time. Aquarius can help Gemini focus if they begin to waver, but must take care to allow Gemini plenty of mental space and freedom. Gemini doesn't like to feel crowded or pushed into anything.

Aquarius is ruled by the Planets Saturn (Karma) and Uranus (Rebellion), and Gemini by the Planet Mercury (Communication). Saturn and Uranus combine their powers to lend Aquarius their progressive, original mind and the determination to put their ideas to good use. Aquarius is the great humanitarian of the Zodiac. Gemini is a great thinker and conversationalist, and can easily help out if Aquarius gets stuck on an idea and needs a little mental shove. Gemini's more flexible mind can greatly aid Aquarius in times of tension or rigidity.

Both Aquarius and Gemini are Air Signs. Their intellectual bond is strong and true. They're both quite social by nature; Gemini is witty and chatty, in love with impressing people with that quick and agile brain, and Aquarius loves all sorts of people. The more different kinds of people Aquarius knows, the better Aquarius feels in life. Both Signs' interests are multiple and wide-ranging. Gemini's penchant for good talks and debates is satisfied by the many experiences these two Signs are likely to share.

Gemini is a Mutable Sign and Aquarius is a Fixed Sign. Gemini likes free flow; they prize independence and are very adaptable to change. Aquarius, on the other hand, is much more determined, even stubborn, and generally likes to take the lead in this relationship.

What's the best aspect of the Gemini-Aquarius relationship? Their ability to work together and provide one another with a sounding board for inspirations and flights of fancy. Their successful verbal interaction makes theirs a healthy relationship.

Hmm.. sounds good eh? I pretty hope so. Thn again.. don't read too much into it. Heh. And ya, toodar said some very touching words too. (Sorry not gonna say it here, heh) Sent me flying for some time. haha.. well. Am surely hoping that day will happen. :)

okay. back to work. my dvd's done. heh.

2006-12-07T01:43:00.000+08:00

Hai~! Caught up with work recently. Guess what I told my toodar is so true. After she left for doha, there hasn't been a day i can leave around 1830. ha. Everyday is just work til late. Am really getting abit tired of it. Shit. Not forgetting I just joined this company recently. And im complaining that much. Damn. Have a feeling that I'm not suited for this industry after all. But thn again, only time will tell me the clearer picture. I've told myself not to push it too hard. Give myself time. But well, never was there a happy note whenever my bosses see the edits. I would always end up sitting there keeping quiet, waiting to make tonnes of changes. In fact. Morale is very low at work. Probably got into the company at the wrong time. The busy schedule. Whereby I have to find out everything on my own. (Good and bad in a way). Good-> Learn it the hard way. Bad-> Cant do work thats up to boss' expectations. Well, then again. They are in this industry for so long. How can I meet their expectations so fast? Persevere. I can do it. Cant go down that easily.

Crazy day again. I think Chris, QY n me are stressed up at work sometimes that when we meet up, all the lame stuffs start coming out. (Relief stress? Ha. At least we do have a good laugh) ha. Mark had a shock today as well. Oh ya, he just came back from Australia. And he's like woah. Now we are like complaining abt our jobs every once in a while. Ha. Diff from the day he left for Australia which is like, all of us were still wondering whats next in life after NS. Ha. Well, mark, darius and ryan. Yr time will come. Soon u'll just do the same. Heh. Oh ya. QY is leaving for States tomorrow. Shiok. 1 month long holiday. Damn cool. Enjoy yr time there gal. heh. One just came back now the other is going. Ha. Taking turns?

Ah. The thought of SIA is back again. Damn. Earlier I had been telling myself to go into the media industry before stepping into other areas. Now I'm in the industry, but how can the thought of SIA be back THAT fast. (Note: No influence from gf. No worries.) I've thought abt trying for air steward back at NS days. But well, I would like to gain exp in the media world first. If I really cant make it, thn alternatives will come. Am I telling myself that already? *shrugs* Why cant I decide on certain things sometimes and be clear of what I want? Hai~!.
Ok probably I'm just venting my frustrations here. Thats y its a blog. An outlet for the stress, so that new one will come in tomorrow. haha.. Yeah. It will. And yes toodar, I wont stress myself that much. Dun worry too much over there ya? :)

Wondering how's toodar doing over there now. So far, from what I've heard from her, everything seems good. Starting her 'school' soon. Ha. Yup. Oh ya. From the pictures, her room is big and spacious.. Hmm. at least they take care of their staff. Cant forget the day when she's leaving for Doha. She was nearly sent home coz the plane was overbooked. Im like.. WHAT company is this? Giving yr staff tickets to go and yet tell some of them to return home and come back again tomorrow? Hello.. its not like they are just carry small luggages for some holiday ya know?! Anyway, she was one of those lucky few that went in the end. No need to carry all the stuffs home and do the same things again the next day. Yeah. Talking abt her. Hai. I miss her. Ya. Sometimes, a simple msg from her can make my day. Easily contented? Nah. Just... nvm. Hard to explain. K k.. before anyone complains abt goosebumps.

Ok. time to relax myself and have the correct mindset to fight another battle tomorrow. Ha. Having war at work everyday man. Heh. Ciaos.

2006-12-02T04:30:00.000+08:00

Photos time!

Simply, 2 people brushing their teeth.

Sing along session in Genting..

Enjoying the cool breeze.

Tootz @ Genting..

2 sleepy looks.

2006-12-02T03:57:00.000+08:00

So there she goes.. to Doha for the next 3 yrs. Its kinda a mixed feelings for me. Happy for her.. yet.. i know i'll miss my toodar for at least 1/2 yr before she can fly back to sg. Anyway, this post will be dedicated to her.. (will have goosebumps for others.)

Toodar,
If I were to say I'm happy to see you board the plane, I must be joking. I thought both of us can handle the bid goodbye situation and leave on a ok note. How wrong was I. Everything had been going on fine. Preparing the stuffs, having dinner with yr family, going to airport, checking in n so on.. Its only when you enter the gates to the restricted zone that I cant go, thats where it really hit me. Hard. Even though I was supposed to be well prepared for this day, not to tear n such. I failed to do that. The moment I saw u walk through the gates, I realised that for the next 1/2 yr or so, I don't have you to style my hair.. you to hold my hand.. you to hug and listen to my 101 ways of calling toodar, you to sit close to me and chat till the cows come home.. you to accompany me when im working late.. you to kiss and love. Without U. But well, now onwards, its all emails, webcam, msn, blogs etc. Funny that we kept singing FIR's Tian Tian Ye Ye. Ha.

Ok, all those 'sad' notes aside, I would really want you to enjoy yourself over there. Explore the world and go do the things that u really wanted. But pls take note. Go easy on the Guccis and Pradas. (You know what I mean) Ha. Remember yr limit. 3 months - 1 bag. Thats what we agreed right? haha..

And well, toodar u better remember yr bf here and don't go astray. haha. I'll be always waiting for your return. We've still have loads of stuffs that we have not done yet. We may suffer for abit now, but it'll be better in the future. I Still Believe.

toodar.. the special chemistry between us can never be explained. it may seemed like a short time since we got together but its like we knew each other for a long time. ha. where were you for the past 22 yrs? regardless of how everyone out there may think, i believe in you, in myself and in this relationship. We can go the distance despite of all the concerns out there. JUNE.. Im coming..*muacks*

2006-11-25T19:08:00.000+08:00

i tell ya. sometimes, reporting late to office may not be a good idea after all. I went back at freaking 4am! not forgetting the work is not exactly complete.. still got to go in early on monday to finish up some stuffs.. (think its alot of stuffs after viewing by both bosses.) hai~! but must really thank my toodar as well.. came over to keep me company.. but in the end she slept on my bike on way back. thats freaking scary.

Ha. Whats even more scary? Never, i mean never ride/drive close to vans. Yes. I can testify that. Nearly had an accident on my way back home last nite (this morning to be exact). I was on the left lane along Sembawang rd. It was not very fast as well.. abt 60km/h? and there's this van in front of me driving slightly slower on the left lane as well. So since im gonna make a left turn, I stayed on the same lane waiting to turn. Thn. This idiotic van, without warning jammed his brakes. No signal no whatsoever. I mean i dun even see an obstruction in front! I jammed mine as well, hitting the panic button in my mind. And just as pictures of previous accident flashed past my mind, for a moment, i was like thats it. Coz im too close to the van. But luckily, my intuition saved me. (or will cause me death or severe injuries, if it was a busy rd) I just swerved to my right to avoid a collision, and stopped there. Perspiring. If there's an oncoming vehicle to my right, I wouldn't know where I'll be. And if I have two lives, I think one of it has just being frightened to death.

Conclusion: Do not follow behind a van, heck I didn't even tailgate. Im just closer than normal. which well is my mistake. Damn. I have to thank my lucky stars.

So.. always live yr life to the fullest and be happy of where you are. Coz we never know, someday, we may not be able to see each other anymore suddenly. Cherish yr loved ones ppl. Enjoys. Peace out.

2006-11-23T16:42:00.000+08:00

Ha. Got off work pretty early today, was told by boss that since all the editing machines were being used up and one of the mac was being upgraded, he sees no need for me to stay in office.. so he sent me home. haha. (good for me actually, coz i'm in a daze while im in office earlier. had gone to zouk the previous nite. so that pretty tells u the reason y im in a daze.) Heh. Oh ya. Toodar and me can really walk n chat.. We start walking from river valley to do abit of digestion after getting a bite, in the end we ended up walking till thomson rd before we finally decided to get a cab. Ha. crazy 2. Not forgetting getting spot checked by police officers. I spent my time laughing though, since they say both of us look like teenagers. Ha. I feel young man. haha...

And ya. Both of us went to get Tiffany n Co couple rings! Nice nice. I've told her that this ring is something to tie her down over there. So whenever someone tries to hit on her, ha. just show the ring. (its on the middle finger anyway, so yeah.) haha. And ya. its meant to be a joke. Not like she's really gonna do that. -.-"

Oh and if u r wondering abt the toothbrush thing, I actually used the toothbrushes that we have brought for the trip and made into something like that. ha. Nice right? heh. And also, my sweet toodar bought me a Guess watch a few days back,

I like! heh heh. ok ok.. enough enough, sending more goosebumps to every reader now. haha..

Hmm.. you know what's best? i can go into office late tomorrow.. boss told me to go in around 3pm. I'm like... ALRIGHT man. But i seriously suspect that he knows my schedule?! Coz whenever I don't meet toodar or anyone, i will have to stay back in office or have to work till late.. and whenever I have appointments, its always on time. Haha.. hmm.. pure coincidence?! Whatever, its been good so far. At least I dun have to cancel my appointments due to work n so on. :)

2006-11-20T23:39:00.000+08:00

Overseas overseas overseas. Yep. Another weekend getaway from here. This time is to Genting Highlands together with toodar, her mum, younger sis, her aunt n cousin, rix n sharon. Talk abt meet the parents eh? I met other family members as well... -.-". stressed. but all in all, it went well. Though we didn't really enjoy the trip..

Sher fell ill on the first nite there.. (later we found out that most ppl were sick. Hit list included her mum, her cousin, sharon n rix) suspect its the food there, especially the ktv one that has got 2 people ill, sher n her cousin. Anyway, my poor toodar was so ill there that she has a super high fever in the middle of the night! Not forgetting she nearly fainted in the toilet as well.. hai~! Of coz luckily, that didn't happen. She managed to get her grip and sat on the toilet seat. In a way, with her getting ill actually gave us to spend some time together alone. (good or bad? u decide) We didn't go for the thrill rides and such. Just the two of us walking around in Genting, spending time together (we dun get to do that often in the near future), enjoying the cool breeze, chit chatting and of coz not forgetting the evil supper feast that we had. Oh ya. And I should say that Genting's clinic medication can do wonders. Ha. Sher was so sick at night, we went to see a doc the next morning. And by evening, her fever is gone and she's happily running around having that ever radiant smile again. Isnt that wonder?! Ok maybe its her good system. haha.

thats 2 weekends out of town. Oh ya. My autoroam finally works! yey. N I've got to cancel it now. :p just remembered. Ha.

Photos u may be thinking? soon soon.. I've not gotten anything from her yet. :)

And yes. Back to work stuffs. Congrats to Chris, got a reasonable pay job, yet unreasonable leave job. But well, u win some u lose some eh? Oi, wait for yr degree la, may be different again. Ha. Darius? Still chao keng in army. Mark still in Aussie enjoying his err.. army days? Haha.. Ryan.. thinking abt his own future and playing dota every now n thn. Fu is suffering in his office, gonna quit once after the star awards. He just needs more drinks. Qinyun? Getting more n more noisy. Prob due to her stress intake too. Screaming at ppl every once in a while. belle? Still MIA. Ha.

And me? Err.. Its been fine i think.. but i still need to catch up more on documentry editing. its like a whole new thing to me. So different from scripted editing.. Like what my boss says, documentry editing really requires technique and talent. Coz I have to edit stuffs out of nothing and its a very good training phase to start off with. So ya. Im going through the hard route as u can see. So ya. Training time. No joke. I feel the stress sometimes.

2 weeks. The timeline makes me feel sad. But well, to see it half full or half empty depends on me. i'm already looking forward to next june.

2006-11-13T12:46:00.000+08:00

Its been a crazy 2 weeks. But I'm happy. My work is getting on smoothly, so is my relationship with toodar. Just a few weeks ago, I'm facing singlehood and jobless life. Now? How things changed. ha.

But somehow I just wished that Dec 2 won't come as fast. Not that i'm unhappy that she's leaving for Doha; I mean, she will be doing what she likes, so of course I'm happy for her. But ya. 8 hrs apart. Ha. Its like we are compressing everything together within a month and a big test coming up for the next 3 yrs. Thn again, the world is getting smaller. With internet, phones, msn.. etc. There are still ways of contacting each other. Just that without her being with me here you'll still miss each other.. somehow.

Went to JB over the weekend together with my gf, Chris n gf, Fugene n gf and Nan Jun n gf. 4 couples strolling in shopping centres there. A pity though, other guys cant join us.. If not, It'll be even more fun. Darius just had his wisdom tooth operation, he cant really eat. Mark is not here. With these two not around, it'll be uncomfortable for Ryan if he comes. So ya. No worries guys, we'll head over to JB to have dinner/supper sometime again ok? Chris wants his chilli crab. he didn't get to eat them. hahaha. Oh ya, Chris is a proven glutton and a piggy (Darius no.2?) haha. oops. He always order lots of stuffs to eat and indulged in them and what i mean by alot is ALOT.. till a stage that even his gf is telling him.. Chris, u r getting fat! Which well.. its kinda true for his belly area. Hahaha... ooops. Having our meals there is like we are on a speed dating event. The gals will be on one side and the guys on the other. Ha.. Change places after 5mins guys? Nah.. haha.. *lame*

Next weekend, I'm not around again. Ha. Heading over to Genting this time. N ya. Together with her mum, sis and two of our friends. *stressed* Meet the parents eh? -.-" Oh ya. I wanna complain abt starhub's auto-roaming. Its doesnt work for me. Boo. Hope to get it fix when i head over to Genting. At least i'll remain contactable.

Shopping at Holiday Plaza? Wait. We didn't even buy anything. Haha...

Nice shot isnt it? haha..

Enjoying hot stuffs on a cold and rainy afternoon..

2006-11-04T02:57:00.000+08:00

Seriously, I have the thoughts of closing this blog. Bringing too much trouble. The problem of having a public blog is that there are others who will oppose to what u write whether is true or fake. but hey, blog is suppose to write what you feel. Well, whatever.

Wait a minute. Why do have to go through all this trouble for others? If you don't like what you see, then, dun read? Ha.

At least I see something.. I don't sharpen my knife and stab at others. (I guess only chris will do that. hahaha... he carries blunt knives around and stab around) Haha... So I think, closing of blog might be re-scheduled.

Anyway, Im starting work next week! Yeah. At Embassy Productions. Nice place actually.. (dun have to go to work at 9 sharp.) Thats the best. So now i might as well call myself a turning pro video editor.. haha.. the only sad part is that my tootz will have my company after office hours.

Sometimes, when a couple faces challenges ahead, it just bonds them together. Coz after all the challenges, we'll know, understand and trust each other even better. Both of us know we can go the distance. One big challenge is coming right ahead on us.. And we're taking it cool. Doha and Singapore.. 8 flight hrs apart. Hmm.. Flying to Doha when I take leave (of coz have some savings being set aside for that)? Ha. How cool is that?

And we have proven something. Both of us do have short term memory loss. Ha.. Went for blading today at East Coast. Bought drinks (just becoz we need a plastic bag to place our shoes) and took a few sips. Next. We left with everything in our bag except for the two bottles of green tea. It was till after some distance that I realised, err.. where are our drinks. Ha. She gave me an innocent looking face and asked isnt it in yr bag? Ha. see. 2 minds with short term memory loss. I've just paid $2 for the plastic bag. hahaha... most expensive plastic bag!

2006-10-31T03:37:00.000+08:00

I took a dive... a plunge into mystery. A place that not many people will be able to take it, a place that the future is still unknown. I took it anyway. I just don't wanna live to regret it. And asked myself what ifs.

3 years. Long/short? You decide.

But I think I can just make it. We'll see.

2006-10-29T03:02:00.000+08:00

Sat nite n im home ya? sad. haha..

I'm in need of English lessons. Can't believe myself for making such basic errors. Hello. ALTER not AUTHOR. What the hell was I thinking. haha.. i knew something was wrong when i typed that. But as a typical I-don't-give-a-damn lazy guy, I just ignored it.. Now it comes back to haunt me. ha. Thanks Ah sze who corrected me in tagboard. Now i have the I-Feel-Damn-Lousy type of feeling. Next time, I better check my vocab before I dare to post anything. haha... Everything is spelt correctly so far right? haha.

Paranoid. Yeah. Ego is shattered. Ha.

Work work work.. Seriously, if I was given a choice, I would choose to further my studies instead of working. Studying in a way is still better. You'll get term breaks and such.. Work? Singapore is so hectic. So you'll know what I mean. But well, no choice for me.

2006-10-27T18:43:00.000+08:00

Before, it was smartly on uniform.. now, its all thats left.. everything being taken down from the uniform and waiting for the ORD date and taking back my pink IC. Arghh. Sad isn't it?

Anyway, went for an interview today, think I fared badly though, besides, its a internet company, not exactly a video production house or such (though i know its not) ha. anyway, they kinda expect me to kick start their video department and be a pioneer. WOW. I'm like thinking, ok this freshie here is gonna kickstart yr video department. Cool eh? hahaha... but going over to that interview place brings back memories.. it used to be the building where MTV was! ha. Everything just look so kinda familiar. Just that its not MTV. haha... Anyway, I guess I can't really talk in interviews.. always fared badly at questions like tell me about yourself or stuffs like where do you see yourself in 5 years time.. I know, I know, I should have thought of the questions long ago. But seriously, its easier when I'm going interview for production houses coz I can aspire to be someone along the same line n industry.. but web? I'm like.. if I answer I aspire to be a director.. thn she'll prob say, oh you have come to the wrong company and such. ha. or maybe, I just think too much ya? hahha...

Hmm.. Smart Mun eh? Heck. I bought it last minute as well.. a few hours before the interview, I rushed to J8 to get a set. The interview is at Shenton Way, I surely dun see myself wearing polo shirt n jeans.. so Shirt n pants it is. thn I had to rush back to amk to alter my pants. And guess what? It rained heavily. So there I was stuck at the coffeeshop feeling stressed coz I might be late for the interview! Luckily, the rain managed to stop in time and I had to get a cab to go down to the said location. Phew.

But thn again. its a bad interview. : P haha...

Went out for dinner with Sher yesterday. Found out that she's gonna leave Sg in about a month's time. Gonna be located at Doha and fly for a few years there. Only get to come back to Sg a few times a year. Well, sometimes, if you really know what you want and like what you do, you don't mind where you'll be. So Miss Air Stewardess, enjoy yr time there. :)
So unlike me, still not sure where I'll be in a month's time. Haha...

Thats the crazy gal with a so stupid looking mun. ha.

2006-10-26T12:04:00.000+08:00

Thats it. The full tour is over, my NS life has ended. No more police work for me. No more shitty cases for sure. But thn again, like I've told everyone else, I'm happy and sad at the same time. Happy because I'm finally done with this phase of life that all men have to go through, sad because I'm leaving such a wonderful team with great teammates. Elton, Pei Sze, Ong, Hairul, Kamar, Zul, Wei Bin, Max, Rizal, Hisham, Lawrence, Jehan, Kow, Chee Khng, Shah, Fad, DTL & TL. Thank you for everything, thank you for letting me to see another side of Singapore, thanks for teaching me all about police life and showing me the ropes, thanks for being there for me when I was down. Just thanks for being wonderful colleagues, friends, kakis, buddies, brothers, (whatever they call it). Just thank you. Without you people, I won't be where I am today. Not forgetting, I know more about law now. Haha.. It seemed like a repeated post. But I just felt that the thank yous are not enough. Hope to see you people achieve greater heights in yr career, may it be IB, TP, Insurance company, Prisons or whichever place you may end up to. Weekends/evenings, feel free to call me for coffee, I'll try my best to be there. :)

Somehow, (I know I'm contradicting) I like police work. (Though not investigation or paperwork) Its really different and interesting to see how people will behave in their worst times, how desperate one can be and how chaotic a fellow can be. Its not what a typical normal Singaporean can see. I've been to chaotic cases, chasing fleeing subjects, attending to death cases, and sometimes (really) nonsensical people. You'll learn something extra, you'll learn how to handle situations of that nature if they do arise. You'll learn how to react and make important decisions when needed. Somehow, thanks to police work. It let me grow into a more sensible person.

Ahh.. Enough of all that I believe. I'll miss AN NPC for sure. If anyone is reading this and wants to join the police force, well, you're lucky if you're being sent to AN NPC team B. Its a great team. It still will be. I know. Enjoys.

The Departed Ones, Ha. Tat to IB. Me out of force.

The team for one final pic.

2006-10-23T04:12:00.000+08:00

Back from Max's house where the mini farewell dinner was held. Our TL, Elton and of course myself are leaving the team, so they have this dinner thing. But in the end, it turns out to be a mini chinese new yr gathering. Most malay officers cant make it as they are preparing for their hari raya. Only hisham was there. ha. so its dinner, drinking and mahjong session. Half of them went to play mahjong while the other half played some drinking game. And of course yours truely had to drink the most. (Whether you considered that as kena saboh or im just plain unlucky, u decide. ha.) And after that, all hell break loose. Yea. Im in my own world thanks to mixes of Gin, Vodka, Red Wine, Jia Jia Liang Teh and Orange juice. Damn. Drank nearly 5-6 cups and not forgetting some of it I have to thank myself for pouring excessive amount of vodka in it.

The mini appreciation plaque. (It has errors in it!) Invaluable became invaluble. Ang Mo Kio North NPC became Ang Mo Kio NPC. -.-"

Before all hell broke loose.. photos with my group members Ong (left) n Elton (center)

This is me after all hell broke loose. Im just lying there making myself comfortable while the whole world is spinning in my mind. Ha. I have to thank pei sze for snapping that photo. haha..

Its nice to have a gathering.. once in a while. do bits of catching up n such. oh yah. Man U rocks. ha. Enjoys.

2006-10-22T12:53:00.000+08:00

A tribute... to all..

In an instant, 2 years have indeed fly past me.. Still able to remember the day I had first enlisted to NS and ORD seemed so far away. Now, I'm approaching the end of NS. The next tour would be my last tour for Ang Mo Kio North NPC. The last time I would chase and catch subjects. The last time I would sit in the patrol car and patrol or slacking with them at KBNPP. Hai. Somehow, I don't really want to leave this team. Team B. Young, Hyper and on the ball. Our teamwork and cooperation is flawless. There are always officers helping each other to assist cases of interest and such. There aint really conflicts within the team. Hai.. But thn.. this team is changing. TL has gone to another team.. so are some of the members of the team. Max, Rizal and Fadzreen had ORD for sometime already, Chee Khng has quit, Elton has 'promoted' to Investigation Branch. I'm gonna leave. Others might be rotated to another team. New officers are in. Hoong Tha and Eugene. Its a new Team B.

Lets look at the past 2 years...

Drill Lessons With Sq 41 At Tracom. Oh ya. Tracom is gone too. Its Home Team Academy
now. (Not fogetting our big head Field Instructor)

Crazy things we do inside the barracks. (Luckily no ambulance needed for this incident) haha.

Our POP dinner in the famous 'walk out' attire...

Our POP March with the rifles.. Neat eh?

Came into team B, and this is a team building session held at peirce reservoir.. (had to walk bloody 10km!)

Max left our team... this pic was taken on his ORD date.

Team Bravo of AN NPC.

Thank you all for everything. I've learned alot during this 2 great years. Sq 41 and Team B. Thank You.

2006-10-21T00:09:00.000+08:00

today has been a rather eventful day if u consider what happened below there...

WE FREAKING HELL GOT INTO AN ACCIDENT IN OUR STATION!! What the hell?!

So the story goes...
Zul (driver) with me and shah (passengers) were about to go out for patrol after pumping petrol in the station. So as we were negotiating a bend in our station, this freaking pickup came out from a parked position and rammed onto us! i mean what the hell.. inside the car, it felt as if we had mount a kerb, but as i turned to my right, to my horror this pickup is right in front of our side doors! Scared the freak out of us. 'another term would be the balls are at our throat'. The car did felt as if it would flipped over as i believed that this pickup driver got a shock after seeing us and instead of depressing on the brakes.. he stepped on the accelerator. -.-" freaky shite.

Damn. Zul was saying this earlier in the day... 'What shall we do today?" I'm like.. "Let's go catch someone or what lo..." (since I'm gonna leave the force soon and i'm going to KINS for re-service <-- will follow up on that later) Thn he replied "No.. Feel like doing something more interesting leh.." Ha. Slap on yr face Zul, is this something more interesting now? getting into an accident.
-.-" Luckily for all of us, no one was injured. And the funny thing abt what Zul said once he came out of the car is "Uncle! Police car leh!" I felt like laughing immediately. I mean obviously its a police car, n he bloody hell knew he rammed into a police car.. so whats that sentence for. Haha... Later i found out that he didn't know what to say, just feel like yelling something and that particular sentence came into his mind so he blurts it out. As for me, I came out of the car, looking freaking pissed and yelled for his driving licence and I/C. Me too, not sure what to do, just yelled that out as thats what normally happens when u attend to a case. Ha. Attending to my own case eh? So after sometime where the accident had registered into our brains, we thn began to do the proper documentations and informed relevant authorities. Not forgetting the mini-photo taking session after that. This is my first accident in a car.. well.. there's always a first in everything right? Hee. -ends-

And yes, as I was saying, I'm gonna ORD soon and my most probable vocation is KINS (something similar to Special Operations Command but its reservist type) which also means.. I wont be wearing that blue uniform that u will normally see on the streets, but to a long sleeved 'combat' type of uniform. Damn i'll hate reservist. not forgetting its 2 full weeks of stay ins. Drats. pls forget abt me SPF.. pls do.. (i know im dreaming)

As for the rest of u, drive safely pls. And always check yr blind spots. VERY important. Zul did his, but the other driver didn't. Damn.

2006-10-15T05:28:00.000+08:00

Do you know there's a saying, kiang jiu ho, mai kay kiang.(read it in hokkien), yep. i think i ought to be scolded by mum with this phrase. ha. knowing that i don't really have a good immune system. i tried proving myself wrong thinking. (Ok i'll be ok. a little virus wont kill) never did i expect it to give me a full slap on my face. im down with flu. N yes in a way, its a reminder to me.. Mr Chee Mun, if there's someone who is sick, do not share the drink with another person coz u bloody dont have a good immune system. I guess my immune system is a self destructive kind. a little virus can kill it already. haha. here's what happened.

Went out with Ong n Elton to Double O last wed. and our ah tat (elton) is sick, down with a bad running nose. So there he was, got a jar of redbull vodka for all of us to share. He reminded us that he is sick n he's using a specific straw. And the big headed n confident me, thinking that my immune system will be ok, didn't really care abt the straws and just drank the drink like how everyone would share theirs. Ha thats it. The little virus killed me.

Today. Down with a bad running nose and slight sore throat. See the relationship between the running noses?! yes. yes. I better wake up from my fucking idea. haha. next time, dun even bother to think that it will be ok, coz IT WONT be ok. damn. Why am i that weak? Hai~!

Freaking running nose. -bleah-

2006-10-13T16:34:00.000+08:00

hmm.. have been thinking for a while.. should i have a christian name? like its much easier for ppl to call me instead of zhiwen or chee mun. but what should i call myself? Jude sounds ok to me though... hmm.. sometime ago, i thought Alfie is ok too.. well.. maybe, when i enter this new company or workplace, thn i'll start with my christian name. currently is still chee mun. hahaha... we'll see. we'll see.

just realised that i have 3 more tours to do before i'm officially on leave. its coming. ahhh...

2006-10-11T18:23:00.000+08:00

I cant believe i've clicked send. yes i did. I've sent to ministry of education. haha. u must be thinking to be a teacher? nope. video editor apparently. but a civil servant editor. haha. didn't know such position do exist. probably i've to edit all those educational programmes? hey, don't they outsource to other production houses to do the job? *shrugs*

Anyway, even if I'm to get in, i'll probably work for a year or two and change. ha. yep. to another production house or somewhere else (depending on my route of advancement).. hmm.. MDA next? ha. u never know man. what's with me and civil servant job?! (i'm eyeing their bonus actually. hahahah....)

Next. Oh ya. Botak Jones at B/608 AMK, their western food is really not bad. big servings and plates that you can normally find at restaurants; not as in plates but food of coz. ok lame moment. Thats y Ch U would recommend that certain western food? yep.

Counting down. 1 month and 2 days. damn. Its close.

2006-10-10T09:39:00.000+08:00

darn. When its getting near, u just dun enjoy the time. yep. 1 month away from ord, 1/2 month away from clearing leave and im here still lost n jobless. ha. yeah. talk abt planning from way back eh? end up to nothing it seems. sent quite a number of resumes already, ok maybe not that much. probably around 4 or 5? yeah. have not sent to mediacorp though. heh.

ORD. just like another graduation. and where do i go from here? not sure dude. hate myself for that. but thn again, its not only me thats like this. Who to blame for all this? myself? ha. most ppl will blame the education system though. its the way we are being brought up. too much spoonfeeding, too little thinking. yep. its like suddenly at the age of 16, u r being forced to choose whether are u going for tertiary studies or jc. u may make a wrong choice there too. well alot do. thn after that (tertiary route), when u believe u have some knowledge and skills to go into the industry, NS calls u up and u have to stay in there for 2 yrs, not forgetting losing some skills inbetween. and when u ord, u r back to sq 1, freshie out in the industry. kinda sucky isnt it? well, it does for me. ha. yes i know, it may be some excuses. but i believe most nsf out there will be pondering abt the same thing when they are nearing ord. where will i be after this?

Life's been pretty mundane, similar stuffs week in week out. coffee, work, sleep, soccer, window-shopping, watch soccer, ktv. But its still pretty ok. :) i remember qy asking, i dun see u being desperate for a girl. ha. well, its been alright. just prob not really thinking abt a relationship now.. or rather there are no gals that im interested in. haha... talk abt picky. hahaha....

Anyway, *calculates* betting is seriously not good. markie mark. pls stop betting ok? dun wan yr bank account to drop til zero. u r like losing practically in every game. Enough!

2006-09-27T01:55:00.000+08:00

Hey hey hey... guess what? my new com is up n ready... *yeah* time to do some serious shit. come to think of it.. i'm left with abt 1 month's time to ord.. n hey! im still not sending out any resumes as yet.. well all these will change very soon.. coz i can finally re-edit my portfolio and get the things set the way i want. :) hmm... lets see.. core 2 duo with 2gb memory.. n 200gb of disk space.. i can really do some stuffs. haha.. *celebrates* (but my pocket is burned that is..) well.. for the future.. these things i have to sacrifice.. then again.. my old com has long past the used by date.. its probably stinko now. if u know what i mean. k k .. its getting late.. i have to hit the bed as well.. oh ya. sonic gear speakers are good.. evo 5. relatively affordable but with quality sound.. well.. till i find the time to type again.. enjoys.

I'm really lazy to do blogging nowadays aint I? ha. well... watever.

2006-09-09T13:33:00.000+08:00

Been a decade since i last update this blog eh? ha. well.. been real busy. ok sort of. preparing for my portfolio has came to a complete halt. everything is just not going right. hai~! well. basically its because i cant convert my dvds into proper editing videos. its funny how i can view the video in mpeg mode and everything works after conversion and once i drag it down to the editing line. everything just went out of sync, skip frames appear n such. damn. is it the editing programme or is it the videos? arghh. trust me to burn it into dvd back then. if its in vcd. i wouldn't have that much problem now. ok ok ... i understand. the quality is diff.. i know. well. so now the only choice i have left is to gather all my past video tapes and covert them again... hai~! -what to do-

Anyway, i guess i have to either knock on someone else's door in order to complete my portfolio or to get a whole new com. all those emails ready for the companies shall wait til completion. haha. *damn* n yes. i have in mind to get a new com. Am checking out the rates and specs with my friend to make sure that this com will give me optimum performance for video editing yet with a small budget. And i have to get it fast. coz at least, i wont need to bother any friends to 'loan' their com for my editing purposes. n not forgetting that im gonna ord in abt 2 months time. well well. 2 yrs just flew by. fast huh? still could remember the day i received the dreadful phonecall to NS. ha. i could even remember the first day i enter Ngee Ann poly.

Overseas overseas overseas trip. first to go, is cruise to nowhere. That'll be at nov 13-15. And i have to thank SPF for that. giving all officers some incentives eh? ha. gonna go with weibin, ah tat n lawrence. n mr bin, u better stay off the casino before u get yrslf into trouble. haha..
NEXT. a short tioman or off shore trip? just get out of singapore. haha. thats planned for somewhere near dec? i suppose so. (its said for sep actually. but well IMF killed everything)
FINALE. hongkong/bangkok trip. This one has been planned for quite some time.. but now we have to decide to go to hongkong or bangkok. this one is slated for feb though. and we'll probably gonna stay there for a week or two. (i'll prefer hongkong if its a longer trip. can i request for taiwan? haha.. i want to know some tai-meis. hahahha....)

Wait. do i have that much money to spend on all these trips? shit. *takes out calculator* Let me strike some 4ds maybe? ha. wait. i dun even buy them. damn.

2006-08-12T17:09:00.000+08:00

Seriously, its just a bad yr isnt it? anyway, one of my close friend's mum has passed away. (i've just attended a wake last month?! What the..) Hope he'll be able to take it. Not forgetting that during pri school.. his dad had passed away. so its very sad that his mum is not with him either.. but well, based on his character, he's a strong chap. all the best dude. Take care.

Had attended the wake yesterday. was rather surprised to see lots of pri school friends there.. ppl like cheong yean, ziwei, huiting, serene, huiping and ming yi. Been 10 yrs since i last saw them? haha. (obviously since pri school grad all of us lost contact) ok maybe u shall exclude ziwei, hongji n cheong yean. i still meet up with them once in a while. lots of jokes and pri school stuffs were brought up. Till we crack our brains to think abt who's their class sitting partner, the whole class list, the childhood games and teachers. Especially the slapping miss lam. Never forgot how i've gotten the first slap from her. hahaha... memories i tell ya. N yes. A Class 6C gathering coming up. It'll be great to see how some other classmates are doing. And we were like saying we should bring something that represent us in the past. Like one old school photo, or some chaptehs, or whatever that's considered antique now. haha... Looking forward to that. :) However, its sad that only at such an occasion thn we manage to gather... if not.. i dun think i would even see them.

And yes. National day is over. another event that i can cross out from my extra duties calendar. Now its left with IMF. And right after IMF.. Viola. Im gonna ORD. *celebrates* ok maybe not. Im still sorting out my resume!!!! damn. good companies. pls wait for me ya? hahaha... (ok im dreaming).

2006-07-30T02:04:00.000+08:00

Its a sat nite!

I can only wonder y am i at home.. haha..

2006-07-25T22:05:00.000+08:00

ok emo mood over. hahah... (at least i recovered fast eh? hahah)

Anyway, darius n one of my colleague just planted me with a big qs again. Ok maybe i should be decided by now, but hell no. Im still not sure what im gonna do. Damn rite? haha.. oh yeah. the sickening qs of the month... What are u going to do after ORD?

Thats it. I tell ya, i seriously have no idea 5 yrs from now where will i be. Am i interested in media? Yes for sure. Am i interested in being a cameraman? Sort of. Editor? Maybe... Producer? Not exactly.. Director? I doubt myself. Designer? Hmm.... Sports journalist? I seriously would 'chop' the soccer part! haha... <-- see im not even decided which post i wanna specialised in. Hai~! Im really not sure man. I may even end up in mediacorp n work for shit to learn all abt lightings n stuff before striking out on my own or go for further studies.. Hmm.. i dun mind being a news cameraman. haha.. Hee... err.. we'll see what happens n what positions are available.... try out first ba. til i find a desired job, then i'll stay.. that should be the way i guess.. for now. haha...

2006-07-23T16:54:00.000+08:00

Well, kat's father funeral is over.. n i felt bad actually after hearing alot of things from daniel... from 2 posts ago, i've wondered how was she doing and all that. This sudden thought just came to me. But.. Why am i just afraid or rather refused to make that sms or call? One simple sms or call wouldn't kill me. Damn. N you must be thinking, what does one sms or phonecall make any difference to her? Well, at least, having someone close to offer a listening ear, someone who understands her plight, feels for her.. someone that she can relate to.. someone that she can turn to when she had problems. Someone who was so close to her in the past. Someone that had truely understand her and was her best friend. Yet that someone did not even bother at all. I felt bad. Seriously. The guilt of being away when someone needed a friend around. I know i shouldn't, but well, during a point of time that yr kin has just passed away, you'll realise how important your close friends are to you. Every single one of them. I have to thank chris, ryan, darius n mark. Without these guys, I dunno how i can get on with life back then. Im sorry kat. I really do. But i know its not enough.

Ugly n nasty july, it just gets worse isn't it? Hai~!. Shit. After so long, i have to admit something. Im tired of finding an escape route. After i had seen her, THAT feeling just hit me. After shunning away for so long, thinking that it'll be all fine and time heals everything. I've failed. Just the sight of seeing her shedding tears, my heart has melted. I wanna protect her, I wanna be there for her when she needs me. I wanna be the one to look after her and only bring happiness to her n never the tears. ARGHH. But i know i shouldn't. I should move on. I cant keep dwelling on the same spot. This particular sentence has been used last yr! Fuck. What am i doing?!

Im bad at dealing with affairs of the heart. If there's a test, i'll probably flunk with a result 0.

2006-07-20T16:58:00.000+08:00

I dont like july.. seriously, every yr around this time of the year, i'll hear bad news abt friends, have personal problems or something has just happened. never the good news. july is just not a good month. true enough, another bad news is out. Kat's father has just passed away on the 19th. If u guys have any free-lance jobs do let her know abt it. Not doing too well i guess.

nothing much to update too. lazy. bored. not in the mood. ord soon? ha. still cant see whats ahead. watever ~! enjoyz peeps. live yr life to the fullest. peace out

2006-07-13T03:45:00.000+08:00

There u go... the dust has settled and the world cup is over.. Italy is the winner. (ok its outdated as they won on the 9th). Anyway, lots of incidents to remember for this world cup. One major incident is of coz mr Zidane's head butt.. hmm.. his head must have made of steel. haha.. even if he used his arms or legs to hit the italian player, the end result is the same. its still a red card offence.. but y the head? to prove that not only his heading power can score goals during france 98 final, he can also make a person fly with the same power in 2006 final. that is the 'legend' for you. In fact, this world cup is kinda boring as most teams are playing with ten men behind the ball and throw a striker forward. and hopefully they will have a counter attack and score from that. france is doing that, so does italy. not forgetting portugal, england and some other teams. boring boring boring. its all abt winning 1-0 and defend the lead. (for england, they'll be happy for a 0-0. they are playing such boring football as if they were leading 3-0 and stroking the ball happily between midfield n defence.)

Ok fair enough, we do see some great matches, like arg n serb. (u just cant stop cheering) and ita n ger. (end to end football). k i admit. i miss korean's high pressure and pacy football. where are all the running n closing down by the red devils of asia? missing. heat? ya maybe. cant believe they have high temperatures like singapore.. 35 C 36C... unbelievable. I've thought european countries are supposed to be cold? haha...

Hmm.. I'm being transferred to office hours again! woohoo. haha.. sat n sun offs.. im coming.. (i looked like an unwanted child thats being thrown around from department to department but nah... they need me for my professional skills. heh heh) arrogant idiot. haha. damn me. im just joking ok, dun feel offended.

And... Ord is coming coming coming. its july.. *calculates* i can see nov! haha... *ponders* i was supposed to go for a taiwan trip after ord... well, its was now. :( Ha. not forgetting that chris kept reminding me that the lead actress in cao ge's superwoman mtv looked like my ex-gf. especially the side angle that is. THANKS AH, chris. Well, been sometime since i've last contacted her.. wonder how's she now.. hmm... nah. nvm. hai~! sometimes, what's not meant to be, cant be forced to be. leave everything to fate, luck, whatever. if its meant to be, thn its meant to be.
Single? nah.. its not THAT bad...

2006-06-24T11:27:00.000+08:00

Well, i've recovered (ok recovered for some time.. im just lazy k?). but another fever is burning right now.. its the World Cup! haha.. yep. soccer fever is on.. n all asian teams are out (again). hai~! when will asia finally have a say in the world? this just proved that 2002 was a fluke eh? but then again, over at the refreeing side, hey hey! a singaporean ref has made it to the top! yes. samsul maidin is the top refree in this world cup so far, beating famous refrees like graham poll n so on.. hmm.. talk abt singapore pride eh? (maybe they should just engage asian refrees and do away with the teams. hahaha... n wait where is singapore national team? err... 20 years away from smelling the little asian cup.)

anyway, i guess its abt time to brush up my editing or whatsoever skills all over again. yes. its like turning a full circle and now im back to where i've just began. im facing graduation all over again. n this time, i will be in the working world. ha. i see ord date coming... time to do up my portfolio... n so on..

Lastly, someone had just said i looked like a prc in my photos. oh my god, thats the biggest insult i've heard. this has just proved that a picture do tell a thousand words. a thousand of wrong words. haha... enjoyz.

2006-06-12T17:45:00.000+08:00

boo. chee mun has officially lost the internal battle inside my body... running nose n fever getting worse.. not forgetting i had vomitted earlier. hai~! doc where r u? its time for me to get an actual mc. haha.. hai~!

too sick to even think properly now i think.. damn. u guys enjoyz.

im wondering.. im still longing for.. im still dreaming.. im.. im.. im selfish.

2006-06-11T03:10:00.000+08:00

DRATS. BAD DAY. It was supposed to be a happy day isnt it? gathering with friends for dinner, celebrating my birthday n watching the soccer match after that... it was all going fine, till bad things happened one after another.

Well, met my yck pals for dinner before we head down to momo area for a drink and watch the soccer match between england and paraguay. Bad Omen no.1 : I felt sick, earlier in the day.. and it was proven later in the night whereby im down with fever.. Bad Omen no.2: I lost the england bet. yes i know, everyone who has bet through online bookie or outside bookie has won money.. but i chose to bet with singapore pools. and the result? disappointing 1-0 win for england. Cant they just score one more then i'll make some money?! hai~!.. nvm.. Bad Omen no.3: my hp went crazy. YES my dear O2 phone went crazy. I mean what the fuck?! not that i've dropped it into the pool or i've dropped it on the floor. I have protected my phone so well. and what?! the phone died on me. the screen will not respond to my finger nor stylus. fiak. Now i'll tell u the disadvantage of touch screen phone. Once the screen wont respond, U'll feel like killing it. I nearly did. even with million times of reset, its the same. O2 care centre tomorrow i guess. Fiak. Bad Omen no.4: It was drizzling on my way back home. (link to next bad omen) Bad Omen no.5: I've beat the red light. I fucking beat the red light and i've felt a flash of blue light. I am so fucking crazy. Here it goes, I was approaching AMK Ave 1 junction at around 70km/h (within speed limit). So as i approached the junction, the lights turned amber. Sensing that i can pass the it easily, i sped up. (i couldn't stop either.. the floor is wet and im near to the lines...) n since i knew that it was a camera junction i focused on the traffic lights on my left while i pass the stop line. Amber. Ok safe, I thought. So i look ahead and continue my way home.. Suddenly, i felt a blue flash, flashing once behind me. I was shocked. I'm not sure whether that light came from the camera or some headlight of a fucking vehicle. (i keep telling myself its a vehicle, which i know its just.... unreal.) Whatever fuck. Now everything has gone totally wrong, and im going to be $200 poorer and 12 points robbed. not forgetting i may even be attending a court case. FIAK.

When the day is bad... its fucking bad. Someone to save me pls? GOD? I dunno man. Damn. IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE HAPPY?! I feel damn fucking lousy now. June 30. Thats the day I'll know whether will i be a happy man or not. Fiak. (TP pls tell me that camera has no film.. pls pls pls).. *praying*

2006-06-08T21:26:00.000+08:00

07/06/06. A special day? Na. Rather not. Nothing too exciting or whatsoever. A birthday simply means u are getting older by another yr. ha. Hmm.. we tend to celebrate our 18 or 21 birthday like hell.. make it damn big or what.. but then.. once u pass 21, the birthdays after that is just... a mundane thing. so. silent n quiet as it is.. the day passed.

But then, weekend is still something to look forward to. :) meeting sec school pals and also that great bunch, well. friends are damn great isnt it? hahaha...

22 yrs old now. Considered old enough to know what i want to do in the future. But sadly, no. im still here, turning circles and not knowing where this blind rat is heading. Will the future be smooth? or is it gonna be a damn rocky ride... Anyway, the thought of studying is back again. Looking at the differences between dip holders n deg holders, well. (maybe im biased) but in the force, its totally diff. one is to take all the shit, the other? to dump all the shit out. Funny isn't it? Well, thats y.. nvm. dun wanna get myself into trouble for defamation. ha.

What am i doing? I dunno.